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Month 7 - Wanting Motivation Not Pressure

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Week 28 Loss: -2.8
Month 7 Loss: -2.6
Total Loss: -31.8 pounds
-6 inches on waist
-2.5 inches on hips
-1 inch on neck
-0.5 inch on upper arm
-1 inch thigh
Body Fat: 41.8%

So, I'm here and I've officially logged everything for 7 days after over 2 months of recovering from 2 surgeries. I weighed in and I lost 2.8 pounds even though I was over on quite a few days. My body is having some major adjustments from taking off the cast and getting back up and walking (well hobbling with crutches is more like it). My mind/emotional eating is also adjusting to having no one here with me since my dad and my sister were here most of the summer and to my accepting that I had to do a medical deferment for nursing school. I'm trying hard not to compensate with food, but it is a weakness of mine.

I started doing PT and I'm going 3 times per week. I do 10 minutes very slowly and carefully on a stationary bike. My gym membership at the Y goes back into effect on Thursday, so I'm hoping to get into the pool. Hopefully, I'll be able to be more active without hurting my ankle or anything else.

The biggest challenge I am facing right now is accepting the post-ponement of my nursing program. Every time I get so close to start this program something happens that prevents me from succeeding. I know that it's the right decision, because if I would have gone I probably would have been in a lot of pain and had to withdraw. I'm just bummed. I am going to take the last 2 non-clinical classes I have to take and maybe a third extra. In order to make this year worth adding another year to my almost decade of college education, I feel like I need to lose all my extra weight. If my surgery doesn't help with the pain and I don't do a surgery on my left ankle, or even if I do - getting rid of 80 or so pounds would be VERY helpful. I need to be as thin as I can be and strong and fit as well.

The problem is I want to change for life, NOT for some goal that's adding pressure. I've always lost weight before for "something else" and not for ME!! I want to do this on a permanent basis and because I'm motivated. Pressure leads to guilt and guilt leads to eating which leads to... emoticon

Healthy living is where it's at emoticon I just hope that I can use this goal as MOTIVATION and not PRESSURE.

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  • MRS_HART30
    You will get to where you want to be in time don't think of it as a delay think of it as a year off to change your life for the better. you can do it!

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    4174 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4508011
    I know how it is to want to make a change for life. It is really hard sometimes and it feels like the world is working against you! Just know that there are some people here who feel the same way and understand what you are going through. The support here is wonderful and just know that we are all here for you!

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    4177 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4106991
    Take your time and don't pressure your self to hard about getting back with the program. You need to take of yourself. But you can say yo your self I can do this. and congrats on trying to start in a nursing program. I am a nurse to even though I can no longer work as one cause nursing is what destroyed my back causeing me 15 back surgeries and my 16th one next month. I hope you heel up soon and good luck on your endevour becoming a nurse. And I am feeling the pressure to. My Dr told me that my upcoming surgery is going to be high risk emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4177 days ago
  • TEALSMOKE
    Wow it's like you are speaking right to me I'm currently sitting here feeling like i'm having a mental break down b/c of pressure I put on myself
    4178 days ago
  • JIMBOUCHIE
    Don't look at it as not succeding. It's just delaying getting started. Better to be in good health and give it your best, than have to quit. Good luck.
    4178 days ago
  • KIERSTENELLA
    Here is some motivation to help you with your healthy goals!

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    I hope you are able to get your strength back and stay enthusiastic about changes. Good luck!
    4178 days ago
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