Month 7 - Wanting Motivation Not Pressure

Week 28 Loss: -2.8
Month 7 Loss: -2.6
Total Loss: -31.8 pounds
-6 inches on waist
-2.5 inches on hips
-1 inch on neck
-0.5 inch on upper arm
-1 inch thigh
Body Fat: 41.8%

So, I'm here and I've officially logged everything for 7 days after over 2 months of recovering from 2 surgeries. I weighed in and I lost 2.8 pounds even though I was over on quite a few days. My body is having some major adjustments from taking off the cast and getting back up and walking (well hobbling with crutches is more like it). My mind/emotional eating is also adjusting to having no one here with me since my dad and my sister were here most of the summer and to my accepting that I had to do a medical deferment for nursing school. I'm trying hard not to compensate with food, but it is a weakness of mine.

I started doing PT and I'm going 3 times per week. I do 10 minutes very slowly and carefully on a stationary bike. My gym membership at the Y goes back into effect on Thursday, so I'm hoping to get into the pool. Hopefully, I'll be able to be more active without hurting my ankle or anything else.

The biggest challenge I am facing right now is accepting the post-ponement of my nursing program. Every time I get so close to start this program something happens that prevents me from succeeding. I know that it's the right decision, because if I would have gone I probably would have been in a lot of pain and had to withdraw. I'm just bummed. I am going to take the last 2 non-clinical classes I have to take and maybe a third extra. In order to make this year worth adding another year to my almost decade of college education, I feel like I need to lose all my extra weight. If my surgery doesn't help with the pain and I don't do a surgery on my left ankle, or even if I do - getting rid of 80 or so pounds would be VERY helpful. I need to be as thin as I can be and strong and fit as well.

The problem is I want to change for life, NOT for some goal that's adding pressure. I've always lost weight before for "something else" and not for ME!! I want to do this on a permanent basis and because I'm motivated. Pressure leads to guilt and guilt leads to eating which leads to...

Healthy living is where it's at I just hope that I can use this goal as MOTIVATION and not PRESSURE.