Saturday, August 29, 2009
My heart & mind are filled with emotions. On December 18, 2007 my father-in-law was diagnosed with lymphoma. On August 19, 2009 he lost that battle. My DH & I have walked the entire journey with him.
This man has taught me so much. He taught me how to love - truly love - my mate. He never once in the 30 years that I have known him - raised his hand or voice in anger or frustration.
I feel an exteme loss for this man yet I know he is in a better place and he is now free of pain,yet the selfish part of me did not want to lose this man.
I now need to strart looking aftger myself as I have spent the last 20 months looking after & helping my Father in law & mother in law. I am afraid that I am falling into a funk as I have alread gained so much weight., The gift of life is not something we should take for granted.
I really need the help & support of my spark people friends.