Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Feeling pretty low at the moment. Isnt it weird when you have so much on your plate (talking about life here not food lol) that you still can find time to try to lose weight call yourself fat and freak out about eating one thing in the day that was not a good idea to eat and then hate yourself for it after words. I dont have time in my life to hate my weight or body and i dont want to have to time to do that. But i still find time to go to the gym, to work out, to manage my food intake and deal with EVERYTHING else at the same time. I know that physicaly im healthy as a horse my cardio is excellent my strength is high and i should be happy about that but instead all i care about is the extra flab around my waist and the size of my thighs!!! Nevermind the fact that when i go to the gym i can workout out harder and longer than the girls there that i want to look like. I was born with this body im healthy and yes im high on BMI charts but to look at me you would never guess thats my weight and from i how i feel and how i can move you wouldnt think it was an un-healthy weight. I guess the trick for me is to like the way i look and be happy that im healthy and i can do the things i can do. Is fitting into a bikini that important in a womans life that we need to hurt ourselves over it? Getting healthy and losing weight to live longer is one thing but woman losing weight so they can look good for everybody else and there dog just seems crazy! And yet im there right beside all those women doing the same thing. Somethings wrong here.