THE NIGHT THE LIGHT WENT ON.... (ding)
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Hello all who read this. I just wanted to say that I have seen the light. =) I have been with SP since 5/23/09 and I am so happy and could just burst.
I had my daughter in 1999 and since then I have been trying to lose weight. I have been off and on exercising and eating healthy for the past few years. I was so unhappy with the way I was treating myself that it was literally making me sick. I would get so disgusted about myself that I would hide from everybody. I would stay home so people couldn't see what I was doing to myself.
Then one day ....DING!! I looked in the mirror and was so mad at myself I started yelling at myself in the mirror wanting to know" WTH have you done to yourself?" Then of course I started crying when my 9 y/o told me I was beautiful and she loved me. Then that was it. That was the day I got off my behind and did something about it. That day I started tracking my food and started exercising. Now, I'm not where I want to be with my knowledge of eating right and exercising but with the help of all the sparkers on this site I am getting there.
Every time I want to give up and not do this anymore, I just look at my daughter (or a picture of her that is on the wall) or a picture of my former self and kick my rear a little more and push harder. I will make it through this journey and when I hit my goal, it will be a goal of a life time.