Okay, so this is the summary for my week 33 and I am frustrated and confused.
I have dieted lots in my life and I have also been pretty well educated on the actual science of weight loss. I am one of the first people to recommend suggestions, and explain the varying aspects that effect weight loss (i.e. sodium intake, building muscle, hormones, etc.). However, I am just baffled here.
I did so extremely well this past week. I stayed within ALL of my ranges (calories, fat, protein, carbs, fiber and sodium) the whole week - not too little or too much. I exercised (again, not excessively), drank all my water, had at least 5 servings of fruits and veggies per day, and got at least 7 hours of sleep each night. I'm bragging here... I think I have the right to, I am so proud of myself.
So, I get on the scale and I GAINED!!!! I repeat, I GAINED.
Then, I reviewed all my stats and it turns out that in the past almost 30 days I have only been over my caloric goal ONE day!!! OMG - I have NEVER done so well with my eating. I'm ecstatic! Emotional eating and binging are problems for me and I have been cooking at home, reasonable portions and been fine.
So I have to ask WTF is the problem with my body?!?!?!? This whole lifestyle change to become more "healthy" is suppose to have it rewards. The only thing I am losing right now is my mind!! I gained this week and I gained last week - not staying the same, like a plateau, but GAIN!!!
I completely understand that weight loss is not an exact science. I know that the main thing boils down to "calories in" versus "calories out". However, there are numerous other variables that correlate with each other and can effect when and how much you lose or, in my case, gain. It's just that I have done sooo well recently with pretty much EVERY variable I have control over... so what's going on??? It's like the fat gods are punishing me.
I want to stay on track, but this is ridiculous. Yesterday I had a wonderful "well F-it" mentality. I decided to order take out and just pig out, because I felt like I had been missing something all this time. I know a popular saying is "nothing taste as good as thin feels", but I feel like someone ripped the rug out from under me. The food was okay, but afterwards, I felt terribly ill and was up half the night because of all the salt and fat. I felt horrible!!!
Obviously my body is happy with the adjustment of eating healthier, but I feel like someone stole MY "feel good". Food used to be my instant "feel good". I would think, well obsess, over what, when, where and how much I was going to eat. Everything revolved around food and it was my comfort. Well last night proved to me that it's not. Yet, I haven't replaced this "feel good" with "feeling good" about my weight loss. I'm completely frustrated and I can't see any difference when I look in the mirror. I've lost some inches, but all the rolls are still there... just a tiny bit smaller. I have tummy rolls, back rolls and chin rolls - all staring back at me in the mirror!!
I will just continue eating and being theoretically "healthier", but I am very unhappy right now. This has taken away my "feel good" and now I'm just fat and UNhappy!
I am trying a challenge - I've never done one before - but I'm hoping it will give me an extra push to stay focused, committed and hopefully get some better freaking results!!
Fat and Frustrated