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Say it with me: "Healthy living, healthy living, healthy living..."

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I know that healthy living is my ultimate goal, but I really want to be thin too! emoticon

I just completed week 34 of my healthy living lifestyle. I was really good 6 days this week and BOMBED 1 day (Tuesday). A combination of multiple doctors' appointments (with bad news), an intense therapy appointment, a divorce the day before and anxiety about a major microbiology test accumulated into a major emotional-eating binge emoticon I ended up feeling terribly ill, the same way I felt the last time I binged and I have to ask myself why I keep doing this. emoticon

I did pay for my binging sins by working out a few extra times and with higher intensity. My net average of calories was good (less than 1400 per day), because I burned almost 3000 calories with cardio and that doesn't include any of my PT or strength training. emoticon

Altogether I lost 3.6 pounds for the week. Considering I gained weight for the past 2 weeks, I wish it was more, but a loss is a loss. It puts me at a 1 pound loss for the past 3 weeks. I still look in the mirror and see blubber though. emoticon So I'm trying to focus on the healthy living goal and not the thin goal. I am doing good with my lifestyle: eating fruits and veggies, drinking my water, cooking at home, working out, sleeping better, having more energy, yada, yada, yada. The weight loss should just be an added bonus, but it's difficult because I want it so badly. emoticon

This week I'm just going to keep telling myself that I am working on a healthy lifestyle and succeeding!!! The weight will come off in time as a by-product of my ultimate goal.

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  • MRS_HART30
    Keep up the great work you can do it we all can do it with enough motivation
    4134 days ago
  • RWETHAIRYET
    First, those mirrors sometimes lie. I've lost almost 50 lbs...and some days when I look in the mirror, I just don't see it, lol. I think we get so focused on how far we have to go, we don't stop to look at the progress we've made. Even as the mirror tells me one thing, my clothes, my hip and knee joints and my generally improved health all tell me something closer to the truth.
    Even with a bad day/week, you're still making progress in the right direction and you're not giving up, so already you're a winner. Just keep focusing on what's healthy...and the thinner will come along with it.

    4136 days ago
  • CHERYLRG
    Here's to having a great attitude! Don't forget too, that it IS a health risk to be overweight, so losing the weight isn't just vanity.

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    4137 days ago
  • CELLEBRUCE
    Congrats on the weight loss! And I know what you mean about concentrating on being thin rather than healthy living. But, that got me nowhere, so I'm going to use your mantra, "Healthy Living.............
    4137 days ago
  • LAWRALOO
    3.6 is way awesome for the week and you should totally be proud of yourself!
    You've got a lot going on and you're working through it.
    Don't be too hard on yourself, I'd be ecstatic with a 3.6lb loss

    You're moving right along :)
    4137 days ago
  • CARTOONB
    Sounds like you ARE making progress. Keep up the great work and you'll get the other progress you are looking for!
    4138 days ago
  • ONEREALLYBIGDOG
    I too, find it interesting to have an off day or one that I over eat, and then find that I'm not feeling well. DAAAAAA, I just need to listen to my body a lot more often, LOL

    WTG on all your efforts Kerry. You really are doing a great job, especially for the issues that you are facing. The big D can cause a lot of stress, but then again, it can lower stress too.

    Hope it all works out in the end.

    Have a super weekend! emoticon job
    4138 days ago
  • MISSVALERIE
    Changing the way you see yourself in the mirror is a difficult task. Being thin is what every person wants, being healthy is what every person needs and your are doing it! You are becoming healthy and loosing weight and that is fantastic. Keep up the good work and remember to look at yourself in the mirror the way you would look at someone else. With love and compassion. Treat yourself the way you treat others you deserve your unconditional love too. emoticon
    4138 days ago
  • _BACK2BASICS_
    Congrats on the weight loss. SP say two steps forward and one step back, so you are just mirroring that philosophy.
    I read a blog posted by Jenalecuy, a sparky, regarding a book she recently read written by Pamela (?). One of the main points is acknowledging the progress we make without using the word but. For example, you could say, "I lost 3.6 pounds this week and I am practicing good habits to continue on my journey." Instead of "I lost 3.6 pounds this week, but I still look in the mirror and see blubber though."

    We are so critical of ourselves and because of that, sometimes we are our own worst enemy. Every day is a new day. You can't change the past, the future is not here yet so live in the present and do your best at this time.
    Take care and congratulations again!! emoticon emoticon
    4138 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/26/2009 11:05:52 AM
  • LLTS01
    Stop seeing a negative image of yourself in the mirror. I thnk your smile is infectious. You are a beautiful woman and should start treating yourself accordingly. It sounds like you were a super woman this week . So pat yourself on the back for all you have accomplished and dealt with.

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    4138 days ago
  • ANGIETS38
    hang in there !!!

    4138 days ago
  • VIVRE5
    good for you! emoticon
    4138 days ago
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