Say it with me: "Healthy living, healthy living, healthy living..."

I know that healthy living is my ultimate goal, but I really want to be thin too!

I just completed week 34 of my healthy living lifestyle. I was really good 6 days this week and BOMBED 1 day (Tuesday). A combination of multiple doctors' appointments (with bad news), an intense therapy appointment, a divorce the day before and anxiety about a major microbiology test accumulated into a major emotional-eating binge I ended up feeling terribly ill, the same way I felt the last time I binged and I have to ask myself why I keep doing this.

I did pay for my binging sins by working out a few extra times and with higher intensity. My net average of calories was good (less than 1400 per day), because I burned almost 3000 calories with cardio and that doesn't include any of my PT or strength training.

Altogether I lost 3.6 pounds for the week. Considering I gained weight for the past 2 weeks, I wish it was more, but a loss is a loss. It puts me at a 1 pound loss for the past 3 weeks. I still look in the mirror and see blubber though. So I'm trying to focus on the healthy living goal and not the thin goal. I am doing good with my lifestyle: eating fruits and veggies, drinking my water, cooking at home, working out, sleeping better, having more energy, yada, yada, yada. The weight loss should just be an added bonus, but it's difficult because I want it so badly.

This week I'm just going to keep telling myself that I am working on a healthy lifestyle and succeeding!!! The weight will come off in time as a by-product of my ultimate goal.

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