Saturday, September 26, 2009
My Bible Study posed a question that was really convicting the more I thought about it. The question based on John 1:11 is this, "How do people today who know about Christ reject Him?"
I see a two fold answer. There's the obvious, people who refuse to believe in Him for salvation. But then there are people like me... He is my Savior, but do I allow Him to be Lord of my life? Do I live for Him in all things? Do I TRUST in Him to satisfy my every need? No no no!!! Grrrr!!!
I pick and choose where and hen I let Him reign. Every time I choose MY way or the world's way over His way i'm pushing Him off His throne. No, not pushing... if He wanted, He could chose to stay, but He wants me to GIVE him the throne of my life - he won't take it by force. I take His free gift of salvation... life FOREVER, and refuse to give Him my life, my will in return. I want the benefits of His gift without the responsibility. How many times do i get on my kids' cases about them wanting the benefits of being part of this family buy aren't willing to accept the responsibility? Can you say hypocrite!
What am I going to do with this thought? Am I going to be all proud of myself for my deep soul searching insight then go on my merry way? That's my usual M.O. Or am I going to use it to cooperate with Christ in teh transformation of my life?
What's most frustrating is I KNOW with every fiber of my being that in allowing Him to reign I will find true satisfaction... not a perfect life... but joy, contentment and peace.
The whole food and exercise thing is a perfect case in point. How much satisfaction do I get out of a pile of potato chips? Sure there's some, but it's momentary, then POOF it's gone! Not only gone, but replaced by regret that destroys ANY pleasure I received, plus the knowledge that I am one day further away from any chance of being fit and healthy. Do I really want to forgo DECADES of health and wellness and a longer life for a few moments a day of pleasure? NO!!!! So why do I keep doing it?