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#111: A New Beginning

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Today is the new beginning I've been searching for.

For lunch a grilled cheese sandwich sounded tasty. So I made two of them. Why, when I knew inside I'd eat both of them and then feel miserable about myself and my failure to exert self-control? I'm not sure why but I did and ate both of them. A miserable feeling amid my self-loathing followed.

But then the old fire began burning. I washed dishes, cleaned the kitchen and donned my gym shoes. The treadmill beckoned. It was tough at first. I have severe bone spurs in both heels and deteriorated discs in my lower back. I may physically pay for the exercise later but at the time I felt energized by the thought of burning off some of the excess lunch.

Total calories gone: 355, more than one sandwich.

Many years ago I had a trick I used while jogging on the track. No matter how far I'd run, if I passed the track's half-way mark, I'd make myself jog that last half lap. Many times it was a very slow jog, but I always felt mentally tough afterwards and a great number of times I was able to continue even further, although at the half-lap mark I thought I had no reserves left.

In the recent past, injuries have limited the aerobics and new medications have contributed to weight gain. But, after today's episode, I again feel energized and mentally tough. Perhaps it's the endorphins talking, but I don't think so.

Isn't it amazing how epiphanies hit us? After languishing for the last three months I feel that I am finally back on track, mentally and physically.

To hold me to it, I'll commit to regular updates on the "new" journey.

May I ask you to help me stay the course?
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    I am here for you Lou, to give you a kick in the butt when you need it emoticon to laugh with you emoticon to cry with you emoticon to learn with you emoticon to exercise with you emoticon to lose weight with you emoticon to deepen our spiritual life emoticon to learn to eat healthy emoticon
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    Spark Friend, Joy
    4151 days ago
    Way to go!!
    4151 days ago
    Go, Lou!!! We will be helping you!!! emoticon
    4151 days ago
    You're going to make it! We're going to cheer you on, the whole way. And when you cross the finish line, we're going to celebrate your victory with you!

    Blessings to you!
    4151 days ago
    Oh, Lou, I just love the sound of determination in your voice! GOOD for you!!
    4151 days ago
  • BIGDAD1211
    Great blog my brother and I will do my best to help you stay on track as that will help me to stay on track also.
    Thanks for the post!
    In Jesus Name
    4151 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5002230
    My epiphanies always come on the heels of "languishing".

    There is nothing harder to beat than a man with an epiphany and a plan!

    I can feel your energy! I'm so happy for you!!

    Keep inspiring us with your blogs,
    4151 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/18/2009 4:06:07 PM
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