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Saturday, November 07, 2009

What can motivate a person to make a major life change like losing weight? Health? Looks? Is this ever enough? They never have been.

I look at pictures of myself from high school and wonder what happened to that girl. You could fit two and half of that sixteen-year-old in my thirty-one-year-old body. Sometimes I think about going back and seeing old friends and ex-boyfriends. They wouldn't recognize me now. This makes me sad. Not that I was ever a beauty queen but I was happy with the way I looked and now I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. Sometimes I get so depressed because of my weight. I hate being the largest person in the room, the heaviest person in the office, the fattest of my friends. I sometimes wonder how my husband can stand to look at me. That is harsh but it is how I often feel. However, this is never enough motivation. Yes, I may work out for a few weeks and lower my calorie count for a while but after a few weeks I give up and undo all the work I have done in a few short days.

My health is a big reason I wanted to lose weight. My doctor believes losing weight could solve all of my medical problems but even this does not motivate me enough to keep up the momentum.

So how do I keep working toward something that seems so hard to reach? I know there is no answer to this. I have to keep working at it and keep trying. This I understand but I would still like to have that motivation to keep me going when it seems I will never succeed. I still need to lose 119 pounds to get to my goal weight. It has been so long since I was slim and healthy that I cannot really wrap my mind around this number. What does everyone else use to keep themselves going? What is your motivation?
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  • TXDREAMSPINNER
    Thank you all for your comments. Learning what motivates others helps me to find my motivations. I love the thought of trading my food addiction for healthier addictions and having mini goals to celebrate. I will try some of these.
    4124 days ago
  • EVESRUN
    Motivation is such a personal thing. For me, working out is a huge stress/anxiety reliever. I also feel powerful and confident. I want to lose weight to be healthy and look good, yes, but it's much more about remembering how I felt when I was fit - powerful, confident and best of all, optimistic. No matter what life threw my way, it seemed I could handle it. These days I blame so much on my weight - it's a crutch for my problems. Also, I would like to lose the weight and get more social. Slowly as the pounds crept on I stopped seeing friends or going out. I'm simply fed up with my own self-loathing. If I do something good for me (like go for a walk), then I feel better about myself...it's addictive. I'm trying to trade that addiction for the one I have with food.
    4128 days ago
  • CASSIE9912
    I had to believe that I was doing this for me and only for me. That was the first thing. After that, the health benefits for my back came in but not the other way around. I then had to remember that the numbers weren't the whole game. How my clothes fit even staying on plan for a single day was a victory. I celebrated all of them. Mini-goals are also vital to my motivation. Every 5 lbs is a mini goal and a victory.

    Having a number of different goals and not all numeric has helped keep me motivated through the hard days and through the plateaus. I hope you can find some for yourself and that they help. emoticon
    4128 days ago
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