Yikes.....been away way too long.

Back at it again......yup that is me always in a constant fight to lose weight and stop smoking. Looking back I seem to have patterns. I do well for a period of time (actually becoming almost obcessive about it) then I fall off the wagon and I totally give up. Like "Ok, I messed up....I'm done, not worth it to keep doing it where I already screwed up. I might as well enjoy the bad eating for awhile then get back to it." The problem is the length of time I dwell in my "mess up's" end up going longer and longer.....really reversing all the positive habits I built as well as all the weight coming back (and with friends).

I need to learn you are going to have a bad day once in awhile but not feel I have to throw in the towel "because I messed everything up". I need to be able to step back take a breath and forgive myself and move on from that point........not dive in deeper. I seem to be getting better at that....but it is a conscious effort. I find I talk to myself alot. Like trying to reason with an addict.

I will try to be more forgiving of myself.