Losing momentum! What is wrong with me!?
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I don't know WHAT is wrong with me lately, but I have been taking many steps backward and I don't know why. I was doing really well and I was getting LOTS of compliments. You think that would only motivate me more, but it hasn't.
I have been eating so much more lately and haven't been working out at all. I was walking on my lunches everyday, but now that it's cold outside all I feel like doing is staying inside. I always tell myself that I will make up for it when I get home and do some workout tapes, but that never happens. I get caught up in the family life and get soo busy with other things that I just don't have the energy to exercise. Reality is...if I WOULD exercise then I probably would have more energy. It is just a matter of taking that first step and getting my butt moving. I continue to push myself farther and farther away from my goal.
I was planning on reaching goal by December 31st. That doesn't seem feasible anymore. I am just SOO frustrated with myself! I would like to join the gym again..for the THIRD time, but I do well in the beginning and then slack off. I just feel that may be the only way that I will get my butt moving during this cold winter. I need some encouragement or something to give me back my spark and get me back on the track I was on. I am so close...yet so far away. I could have been at goal a LONG time ago, but it's times like these where I just give it all up that have prevented me from doing that. If I could only get myself to feel that I, yes just me, REALLY deserve this then I think I can stick with it. I have pushed myself to get out there and reach pretty much every other goal I have set for myself...this one is by far the hardest. Here's to getting back on track..whether I like it or not!