Listening to that still small voice
Friday, January 01, 2010
For over a year now, when I have prayed for guidance, I get the same thought/feeling each time. "Get healthy...mentally, emotionally, spiritally and physically." The problem is I've been running away from that edict. The work it takes is too much (that is what I would tell myself) or maybe I just didn't understand God's will. I've decided that I need to finally work on what God wants me to work on...getting healthy. It will take some time away from the family. I will have to be firm and start saying "no" to people. I also need to spend time each day just listening to that still small voice. Took a few small steps today. I've been getting my water in and got back on the treadmill. Will really start focusing on the food portion hopefully by Sunday and Monday at the latest. I have been doing more Bible Study through BSF and spending at least 15 min each day in prayer and meditation. It won't be easy. Old habits die hard, but God would not tell me to do this if He wasn't willing to help me to do it. I just have to die to myself and live within the confines of what God wants me to do. I'm asking people to just pray for me. Over all these years, I know I'm the only one who can change and do the changes.
Of course, I was a little manipulative with Jillian today. She kept coming in and bugging me when I was doing my Bible Study. I told her after the third time that if she wanted to stay in the room with me that we were going to take a nap. She left and I didn't get bugged by her again. LOL Hmmm....maybe it won't be as hard as I thought...