why do we do this to ourselves??
Monday, January 04, 2010
Oh it's been wayyy too long! and as I discovered this morning as I was getting reacquainted with my treadmill, I've MISSED it! I've been feeling so good for the last few days since getting "back on track", I have to wonder what masochistic part of my brain it is that derails me. I feel so good, physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally...you name it...when I am eating right and exercising, even before any weight starts coming off. Just getting in control gives me such a lift. So why then, do we sabotage ourselves? Why do the jelly donuts have such a siren song? I don't know, I don't believe that anyone does, otherwise there'd be no such thing as overweight people! But maybe, just maybe, if I keep reminding myself of how good it feels to be doing the right stuff, I can keep doing it. The good news is that this time I didn't go completely berserk. I had pretty much let all the exercise go by the wayside, partly because life got so crazy busy, and partly because I didn't make the transition from fall to winter very well...I still wanted to go outside and play, and it was too cold, so I stayed inside for spite...yup, dumb, but thats my rationalization for it! The only thing I can say that's even slightly redeeming is that my new career is more physical than anything Ive done before and it uses lots of muscles and must burn a few calories, since my weight has stayed pretty much the same, thank goodness! Of course I can't help but think, wow, just think where I'd be if I had kept exercising regularly along with doing massage! Shoulda coulda woulda...but no whining, no looking back...only forward from now on! and downward :)