Sick and Tired
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
So, here's the deal : I always feel like I'm being compared to other girls and it completely destroys my self esteem. My boyfriend says that he loves me, and he loves me the way I am, but I can't help but notice how he looks when a really pretty girl comes around. He tells me that I'm pretty and he likes the way I look, but sometimes I have a hard time believing him.
Either way, he seems happy with me and I've just got to get past my own demons to accept that. I have very little self esteem to begin with, so this is just another blow to it and I'm getting so sick of all of it! I want to change myself to make myself feel better...emotionally, physically, mentally...just overall.
Willpower is something I'm lacking, so I would absolutely LOVE to have a workout/diet buddy. Just someone to keep me motivated and remind me not to give up. I really want this, more than ever now...sparkpeople is going to be my big step forward, and this time I'm not turning back.