Wednesday, January 06, 2010
I'm a pro at making excuses. Getting frustrated, overwhelmed, depressed, you name it, and use it to treat myself badly. I know what I do hurts me. And somehow I convince myself it's what I deserve. I declare it over!
There will always be times that are harder than others. I just can't let those moments turn into month long trends. This body right here - it's not me. I hate my wedding photos - no woman should hate her wedding photos. I don't want to keep hating photos of me.
Yesterday was a good day - stuck to my points and got extra exercise in (still not anything brag worthy, but more than I was doing). I'm using yesterday to get me through today. I actually found myself wandering around the kitchen, in the pantry. No plan. I don't remember making the decision to go downstairs. Well, as soon as I realized I turned around and came back up to the computer. What was I doing?
Today is a little hard. I'm sore, and have to be really careful not to displace my rib again. I popped it over the holidays, and it took over a week to get back to the doctor to get it in. So right now it would be happier in the wrong place than where it belongs. So I have to be very cautious with my posture and movement that I don't allow it in the wrong place (It's taped, so that helps). Luckily a good friend mentioned butt and leg exercises. Of course! So I can still exercise without using my core too much, or twisting. I go back in 2 weeks, and if it's not better, I'm in for an MRI. My hope is it will be all healed up and I can start working out like a pro.
Saw a neat tip in a magazine today. If you find yourself wanting to just munch, paint your nails! Then you won't be digging into any bags of food! I almost never have the time to do my nails, so they will benefit from that idea!
Last night was a late night, didn't get home until after 8:30. But I watched the end of Biggest Loser. The amount of weight they were losing in 1 week was astounding. They were exercising in a way I swear I can't. Well, why not? You have to push past your limit to know where that limit it. I vow to find mine, once I get clearance from my doctor. Until then, I'm watching my diet and moving in any way I can!
It's going to be another good day.