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Fall seven times. Stand up eight.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Ok...this is one of my favorite quotes. I try to use it constantly to motivate myself. Why is it that standing up is so hard. Is because I am ashamed I fell down? Is it because I am starting to feel like it will never happen? I honestly am not sure. I guess its embarrassing. Each day I wake up is like trying to stand up again. I have so many things going on in my mind that I feel as if I cant accomplish anything. I am afraid to step on the scale because knowing there could be potentially bad news.

When I think about loosing weight...I smile. But to loose weight is a challenge. I will continue to try but I feel Like I have fallen millions of times and gotten up a half a million.

I just need support. I need that strong support system. This is the place to be when you are needing support. I also have a great friend that is helping me out with this. She knows my background; my life. She know the roller-coaster I have been through.

I am asking The Lord to help me, guide me, strengthen me, strengthen my willpower.

I will overcome... I will do this for my son. I don't want to let him down. He needs me.

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    Mariel - It's safe to say that even though you are fearful, you have taken a stand. You've joined SP in an effort to help yourself reach your goals - the first steps on this journey of yours! How FANTASTIC is that? It's GREAT!! Shame be gone! You should stand up and SHOUT it to all who will listen!!

    I can't say it's simple, but here's something to consider. Stephen Covey discusses the "circle of influence" and the "circle of concern" in his book, "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People." When looking at the things that worry or bother you, decide whether it's something you are concerned about, but can't influence (don't have control over or can't change) or is it just the opposite? Is it a concern and something you CAN influence/do something about? If it's something you CAN change, then figure out what you can do to achieve the positive outcome you seek. If the concern isn't something you can influence, you need to make the best of what is.

    I see from your page that you have committed to weighing only weekly. What about weighing only monthly? Don't put the emphasis on what the scale shows! Is this journey for the short-term or long-term? Are you dieting or making a lifestyle change? If it's dieting, you will be tied to the scale because that's the tool you use with a diet. If you are making a lifestyle change, what the scale shows matters, just not so much. I'm trying to focus on my measurements instead. The scale can fluctuate a lot! I don't want the disappointment when it doesn't show me what I want it to. But, it's hard to argue with lost inches!! LOL!

    I've decided I want to make a lifestyle change. That means that I will have to address my eating on a day-to-day basis. I kinda relate it to what an alcoholic must go through in order to be sober only I'm dealing with food rather than alcohol! Am I perfect with it? Heck no! If I want a cookie or candy or whatever, I CHOOSE to allow myself the treat. I account for it on my tracking tools. Even if I go over, it's ok because I have made the conscious decision to do it! Life's supposed to be enjoyed not endured, right?!! The JOY IS IN THE JOURNEY! I just can't make too many of these concessions too often or I will undo my progress. Choices! Accountability! Moderation!

    You like photography, right? Why not think of each day as if it's a picture you are staging? How it comes out is up to you and the choices you make. To help me identify areas I need to work on, I try to look at each of my days like a painter with an empty canvas. As my day progresses, I'm splashing colors onto this imaginary canvas. When things are going along nice and smooth, I'm seeing bright colors added. If things aren't going so great, then I'm adding darker colors to reflect how I feel. At the end of the day, using my mind's eye, I take a look at the colors that have been thrown onto the canvas..are they mostly bright or dark? If they are dark, then I try to find out why so the next time things come out differently and my canvas is bright and glowing! Does this work all the time? Heavens no, but it helps me to recognize problem areas so I can make adjustments and not have to do it all over again and get the same results. We have the ability to CHOOSE how we respond. How wonderful is that?!

    Now, I've been heavy since I hit puberty! LOL! I used to get hammered by one of my parents so often, I simply told them if they wanted anything to do with me, they would have to back off. They did, but recently it's started again (since I shared my excitement about SP). Basically, I was told by this person that I was FAT and WOULD ALWAYS be fat and all I needed to do was quit stuffing my face! Naturally, I was hurt. But, I have to consider the source and keep on a-steppin! I pondered over what was said in this letter and was mentally down for a couple of days and even binged some. But, because I'm making this a lifestyle change, I didn't let it get me down for long! I'm trying to take it one day at a time...."just for today" is my motto. I can do whatever, just for today. I don't worry about yesterday and don't look too far into tomorrow (why borrow trouble, right? ha ha ha).

    Take it one day at a time. See each tree rather than the whole forest! Break it down into doable tasks and bask in your accomplishments! Follow your plan, enter your info onto the tracking tools, review your reports, note where you need to improve and tomorrow is a new day; you have a new canvas to use! Do this daily and before you know it, you will have made good progress towards reaching your goals!!

    Hang in there! This journey isn't a sprint, it's a marathon! LOL!! Take care!

    Mary emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3995 days ago
    I totally agree with you, this week I was only able to go to the gym one time, and I did not eat quite well. I think the trick is to know that you can take one day at a time...sometimes we just pressure ourselves too much, and in my case, I always fall when I start overthinking and feeling guilty. I realized that if I just take it easy on me, it will be just easier for me to jump back on track!

    Best of luck! We shall prevail!

    4007 days ago
    Good luck you can do it. I am in the same boat right now and have fallen so many times and just need to get back up again. emoticon
    4007 days ago
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