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::bends over and kicks self in butt::

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

That is what I have had to do as of late because I must admit that for some reason, whatever reason that is, that I have just NOT been feeling this lately.

I don't know if it's the new meds that the doctors have put me on due to the fact that I have been diagnosed with yet another illness that I was in no way prepared for, and I am wallowing in my own self pity, or it's that TOM and I just don't have the energy, but I have been slacking in my working out and tracking food for the past 5 days, and I must admit I don't like it, not one little bit. I can't even pretend that I do because I don't.

This is NOT what I signed up for this time around, things were going to be different, but I forgot to factor in that life still keeps on happening all around you, and it doesn't care if you are on this journey to a better you, or what your reasons are for wanting this more than you ever have. Life happens, and you have to learn how to roll with the punches, and I guess I am still learning how to do that, do it WELL anyway.

I have to remember that along with the punches comes the victories too, the good parts of life. I have to remember those victories and all that I have accomplished and everything that has come into my life and is good. I have to remember these things because if I don't, then this journey will be filled with all of the negatives, all of the punches, and as Mary J. Blige would say I don't need "no more drama in my life."

So I am still looking forward.

After a good swift kick in the butt for myself.

Do you know how hard it is to kick your own butt? It's just the kick I needed.
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    great perspective and attitude..now if you want, i can always emoticon your butt for you so you don't hurt yourself.. emoticon emoticon
    3943 days ago
    you've got a whole community full of people here to kick you in the butt! Even though you don't want to do it, you know you need to. You know it's going to make everything in your life easier to deal with. keep going!!
    3946 days ago
    You are not alone on this one. I have been struggling along with many sparkers and we must dig deep and stick with it even when some days are not so pretty to look at. Before long Spring will be here and we will all get a wonderful BURST of ENERGY. We just need to keep our journey's in tact the best we can and ride this winter to Spring. We all have accomplished so much and come to far to not continue. We are almost there!
    3946 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/9/2010 7:51:11 PM
    Nikki, great attitude and way to pick yourself up! You are right about life, but you are strong and powerful and can overcome the obstacles in your way. emoticon
    3946 days ago
    Stay with Spark! We will all help you! emoticon
    3946 days ago
    I know exactly how you feel. I'm still doing my workouts, but my eating has been horrible. I think for me it is the time of year, and with all the snow, ice, and bitterly cold temps, it's just making it worse. We need spring to get here. So, hang in there. You can get back on track!
    3947 days ago
    Kick me too. My TOM is stopping me. UGH!!
    3947 days ago
  • TIGGER622
    could you kick me in the butt too??? i have been getting my workouts in somehow - but i dont feel like it! and when i cheat, i cheat BAD! whats with that??? you are so right, life doesnt stop just because we decide to focus elsewhere... thanks for the push - i think i'll try and kick my own butt! we can do this!!!! right?!?!?
    3947 days ago
    I feel ya, Nikki. I swear, I think we're paddling in the same boat! I'm glad you blogged about it, now I don't feel so alone. I really do hope it's just the meds you've been taking and if so, they can be adjusted and hopefully you'll feel better. Talk to your doctor about it. That is very important. Whatever happens, even if you don't feel it, DON'T give up! Keep going and remember we're all here for you.

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    3947 days ago
  • JRSMITH1982
    Hi Nikki, I'm from Northeastern Iowa and came across your post on the Iowa sparkteams page. I just wanted to wish you the best in your journey! emoticon
    3947 days ago
  • LAURIE5658
    Nikki, I have a hunch that this latest bout with the funk can be blamed on the meds. If that is the case, some of this may wane after a period of time when your body adjusts to the new meds. I hope so anyway.

    3947 days ago
  • RENA1965
    Hang in there..
    3947 days ago
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