::bends over and kicks self in butt::
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
That is what I have had to do as of late because I must admit that for some reason, whatever reason that is, that I have just NOT been feeling this lately.
I don't know if it's the new meds that the doctors have put me on due to the fact that I have been diagnosed with yet another illness that I was in no way prepared for, and I am wallowing in my own self pity, or it's that TOM and I just don't have the energy, but I have been slacking in my working out and tracking food for the past 5 days, and I must admit I don't like it, not one little bit. I can't even pretend that I do because I don't.
This is NOT what I signed up for this time around, things were going to be different, but I forgot to factor in that life still keeps on happening all around you, and it doesn't care if you are on this journey to a better you, or what your reasons are for wanting this more than you ever have. Life happens, and you have to learn how to roll with the punches, and I guess I am still learning how to do that, do it WELL anyway.
I have to remember that along with the punches comes the victories too, the good parts of life. I have to remember those victories and all that I have accomplished and everything that has come into my life and is good. I have to remember these things because if I don't, then this journey will be filled with all of the negatives, all of the punches, and as Mary J. Blige would say I don't need "no more drama in my life."
So I am still looking forward.
After a good swift kick in the butt for myself.
Do you know how hard it is to kick your own butt? It's just the kick I needed.