Monday, February 15, 2010
I get on the scale this morning after avoiding it all weekend and I wanted to smash it into pieces. It read 220! 220!220. I want to scream will it take for me to stop killing myself? Will it take me getting an illness? Will it take them having to roll me out of my house? Oh God, I don't want this. Heavenly Father, give me the strength to say no and to want better for myself. I deserve better than this.