Need God's Healing, Quickly, and Peace with His Will
Friday, February 26, 2010
I'm struggling with a less cheerful, upbeat item today in contrast to my previous post. My health has been really bad lately. I've been worried that I won't be up to the challenge of chaperone to my daughter & her choir touring Italy beginning March 12th. Which is such a short time away. I'm praying for a rapid turn around in all the troublesome areas that are involved in my health issues now. My fears of not being able to go on the trip have gone unspoken by all, even though I know my family & friends see it. Last night, my husband finally said it aloud, "you seriously need to think about not going on the Italy trip". When I heard it aloud, it was like a knife to my soul. I've worked so hard to get ready, personally & hours & hours of volunteer work already for over a year. Plus the considerable cost, which has been made already, paid in full, however I did buy cancellation insurance. I've make tons of arrangements, preparations, etc & I'm close to being ready to just load my suitcase. How can I not go? This is the chance of a lifetime. Not that all the cities we tour including the Vatican won't be there later, but my daughter won't be singing there. This is a BIG thing for her. She was chosen from a very select group from her school & our state to do this. It's an honor, a privilege, a success from the result of 13 years of private voice lessons. How could I miss her singing at the Vatican, in St. Peter's before the Pope? And miss the Papal blessing we're to receive as a group, chaperones too? How can I NOT go? Reality check, how CAN I go? I want to just crawl into Jesus' arms for comfort & ask Him for guidance. Oh Jesus, what should I do? Can I be restored to health in time? May I ask for your healing touch & that your will be done & I'm able to be at peace with your answer.