Well, it has been two months since I made my Spark return, after taking the Fall and Winter off..to do some plumping up! I'm such a pro at both losing
, it's not even funny!!
But, with each success and failure..comes lessons learned. And when that happens..then it is sooo worth it! I gained many, many tools, from last years SUPER success, and also from the slip up, that is has helped me, this time, beyond measure, to do a lot of self improvement. I know more about Shelly, NOW, than I did at any other point in my life! There is no more question of WHY the slip ups happen. I KNOW! And now that I do know the WHY...I can master the CURE!!
When I came back on January 1st..it was one of the hardest things I've ever done! No one ENJOYS that 'tail between the leg' feeling of shame. But, it had to be done! You can't fix a problem, if you constantly run and hide from it! So I just laid it all out there..gathered up all my long term SUPER spark friends (who are priceless to me, by the way!), and have since gained many more wonderful friend additions, since then.
My stats on January 1st were...
26% body fat
24 inches BIGGER
Size 10 jean - very tight
Size medium/large tops
My stats, today are...
19% body fat!
22.5 inches SMALLER! Just working on those, 1.5 inches of ,stubborn, love handles! Ha
Size 5jr jeans!
Size small tops!
Total pounds lost, thus far: 18.5 pounds!!
My maintenance range to reach is 135 pounds - 130 pounds. So I'm almost to that upper goal number! Just 4.5 more pounds to go!! Ultimately, my perfect weight is 130 pounds, at the minimum. I have come to learn that THAT is where MY body feels and does its best. So, no more striving for that NEXT 5 more pounds lost. Such a waste of time and mental energy! Too much scale obsession ends up backfiring..and who needs it!
The FINAL goal I'm seeking, is NOT lower scale weight or even a totally fat free body...But to master the art of MAINTAINING! And I WILL master it!! I have ALL the tools needed to make it happen! Sometimes I doubt myself. We all do. But, then I just do some more internet researching to try and find what else it is I am missing. And you know what I find??
I'M NOT MISSING A SINGLE, SOLITARY THING!!
Nothing I find, offers me anything more than I have ALREADY learned. Now, it's just a matter of believing that I CAN DO IT...and just make it happen!!
So, even though my 'scale weight' is almost to its ending point...I know the battle ain't won! The hardest, for me, just begins...
No more, exciting, scale drops to celebrate!
No more inch losses to track!
No more clothing size drops!
No more "Wow! Look at how much weight you've lost!" comments from co-workers or family!
In other words...........BORING!!
But, I have come to learn that "Boring" is my own personal 'challenge' to concur. No one can help me with it. I just have to find new ways to make it NOT "boring" and more into a 'challenge'...which I, absolutely, thrive on!!
I KNOW my Spark friends aren't going anywhere! And, this time...neither am I! Promise!! I'll be there for you, just as much as I KNOW you have ALWAYS been there for me!