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Saturday, March 13, 2010

Ok I am really going to pour my heart out here. Here goes. I am an emotional eater and I know it. I have really tried to control it and have been doing some what of a good job at controlling it but with the latest devastating news I don't know if I can do it all and not turn to food to help me deal with my feelings. We just found out last week that my husband's grandmother has cancer. I am so upset because all of my grandparents had past away before my husband and I started dating. We have been together for 9 years and ever since day one this woman has been like my own grandmother loving me unconditionally. I am really trying to stay strong for my husband's sake because he is taking it very hard since we live so far away from all of our family and when his other grandmother passed away last year we could not make it to the funeral. We have decided to go back and visit this coming week so that we will get to be with her when she is still herself. I could not imagine nor would I want to when she gets really sick. It has taken me way too long to realize that our family as well as our own health is the most important things in life and that everything else will just have to take a back seat. I haven't even really had time to grieve. I have been too busy trying to work out my schedule, my husband's schedule, making travel arrangements, etc. etc. etc. It feels good getting it off my chest, now all I need is a good cry and I will be good for a while I hope. emoticon
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  • CMK907
    I'm so sorry to hear the news. I lost my grandmother just over a year ago, and it has been the hardest 16 months of my life. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
    3970 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/14/2010 5:21:10 PM
    I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I know it will be hard on you and your husband but at least you will be able to see her. Treasure every moment because these are the moments you will carry with you. You're blessed to have her in your life and she is blessed with your love as well.
    I will be praying for ALL of you. God Bless.

    3970 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5651955
    I'm so sorry to hear this. BUT, you are still blessed in that you knew her and were so close to her. I only knew one of my grandparents, my grandmother on my dad's side, and not very well at that because she lived in Houston and we lived in Wyoming; and I was so young that I just didn't get close to her. By the time I was 12, I had no grandparents at all. So, remember your blessings, and the good times, and do your best to not let the food emoticon get the best of you.
    3970 days ago
    *HUGS* From one emotional eater to another, YOU CAN DO THIS! I know it is hard, believe me. I lost my grandmother during the winter 5% challenge and it was hard. My grandmother went in for heart surgery, they made a mistake, and after 3 weeks she passed. I never got to see her as she didn't want any of the grandkids to see her that way. It was one of the hardest times I faced, but I used my fellow Cats and spark friends for emotional support. Remember we are here for you for both aspects, grief and your emotional eating response!
    One way I handled it was gum and water...anytime I was feeling overwhelmed and wandered to the kitchen I MADE myself drink a glass of water and then popped in a piece of Stride gum. Keep the gum on the counter so it's right there ready to grab. Keep another pack on you at all times for when you are out. If your lying in bed and can't sleep because your mind is going a mile a minute, try some crunches and leg lifts (this always got my mind to focus on how much I hate battling the bulge and let me fall to sleep.
    I am so sorry for the pain you and your family are experiencing. Enjoy your visit, take a camera with you and make sure you capture some memories. But also remember to take care of you.
    Please sparkmail me if you want to talk. *Hugs* You will come through this stronger!
    3971 days ago
    I am so sorry. I will be thinking of you guys and praying for you.
    3971 days ago
    I'm sure sorry to hear about your grandmother~in~law's illness. Keeping y'all close in prayer. *hugs*
    3971 days ago
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