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Friday, May 07, 2010

Ok, here I am...at 50. Thinking CRAZZYY things! My 93 year old Dad's nurse, whom I talk to alot, said I should go to nursing (LVN) school. I immediately & repeatedly told her that was NUTS!!! She finally said, Ok, she'd lay off. But she planted the seed in my brain.

I haven't worked outside my home & husband's business since my son was 10 months old, & he is almost 19 now!! I never went to ANY college, but did get my GED. Now here I sit at 50 - uneducated with no marketable skills, unemployed, & not just broke, but VERY in debt. And fairly "over the hill" to be trying to reenter the job market.

SO, I think - maaaybeee I could DO this thing! At the very least, I could look into it. I don't even know where to go with the blog after that, except to say I've never had alot of self confidence or a high self esteem. I know it would take alot of work & persistence to even get STARTED! (The first few ideas I had for schools to attend were not feasible - didn't have the program..etc etc) But even if I DID find a school - what am I ?! NUTS!!?? I know, I know.... I've read alot of inspiring things that make one think that anything is possible. But for ME??!! I get to thinking about all this & then my old brain wakes up.... "What are you THINKING!? Who? YOU??!! Oh har har - just LOOK at yourself.... Old, awkward, STUPID even... etc & blah blah. In my opinion, as I've heard & read it enough, it takes a VERY SPECIAL PERSON to be a nurse. I find it hard to believe that that could be me.

But at the same time - I don't want to give up before I even start. But then there's "Do I even really WANT this?" Not to mention, "Could I even PASS a college course, let alone get a degree or certificate?"

I saw a simpler certificate to go for at one of the community colleges - "Medical Office Front Desk", which frankly seemed a bit more realistic. Two problems with that though - the course is only given at a college that is too far from here, plus my daughter pointed out that to work a front desk at any medical place in TEXAS, you'd darn well better be bi-lingual!! (English/Spanish) Sigh. (back to the drawing board)

I've never even considered anything like this before, & so am very unsure of myself. My husband by the way, says that if I want this, he's behind me all the way. Yes, but. IF I really want this. Am I going to get into the middle of it & decide I don't want it? I thought of taking a couple of core classes just to see how hard they were, but I can't get a grant to do that, & the ONLY way I could do ANY of this would be on a grant.

I just know that the couple of times my Dad has been in the hospital lately, or I've been with someone at the doctor's office for that matter, it seemed attractive & interesting to me to be "part of" this workplace. However, again, do I just want to be "part of" something? Fit in, etc?

I know I can't sit on this too long, but can't go leaping into it thoughtlessly either. I can see me now, sitting down with a two foot stack of textbooks, going "What have I DONE??"

Anyways, thought I'd blog about it, as this is something very big for me.

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  • SAL1512
    Anyone who has run a household, helped with her husband's business and raised children has marketable skills! Get out a piece of paper and start writing down those skills. You will be surprised!!! A lot of your "education" is experience. A friend of mine that I worked with for over 10 years, turned 62 this year and graduated with an Associates Degree in Hospitality just this spring. She had always wanted a degree. Now she has a glow about her because she accomplished a life long goal. I think you should look into nursing school. Our neighbor girl got her CNA certification so she could work in the nursing field while she was going to school. You could start out like that too! Go for it!
    3775 days ago
    Nursing is a great field, and there are many opportunities. Hospital nurses are the most obvious, but it does not end there. I would have to believe that home health care is a growing field.

    My sister in law is an assistant dean of nursing at a major university. Send me a sparkmail if you would ever want to talk with her. At one time her school had an online program, but it would not have been good for you. It was for nurses (RNs and maybe LPNs) who wanted to get their degree. Also, I believe the program was discontinued. But there may be some online options out there.
    3780 days ago
    Don't be intimidated by college. It's REALLY not that hard- you just chip away at it. I was a high school dropout (pregnant) who got a GED and went on to college- young, married, poor, with 2 little kids.
    Look into the CLEP tests (college level examination program)- you get credit for taking tests that reflect how smart you get just from life experience- bet you have had plenty of that!
    Good luck, my friend!

    3791 days ago
  • MLG511
    My sister went back to school in her mid 40's to become a nurse. The pay is great and you can get a job any where. Nurses are always in demand.

    Look into what courses you can do on line so you do not have to travel or there might be a self paced degree.

    Good luck!
    3793 days ago
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