I AM DONE
Monday, May 10, 2010
I am done. I have lost 145 pounds and now weigh 145 pounds. Never in my entire life did I ever think that I would say this. I am done. Not only am I done, but I have been maintaining my weight as a lifetime member at Weight Watchers for 5 months. 5 months at lifetime and weighing in under my WW goal. It is mind boggling for me.
This is the first time I have ever made it to goal let alone maintained for 5 months. In the past, I would have 3/4 of my weight loss back by now. I am a new person today and have no intention of ever letting that happen. Maybe because I am older (51 yuk) or maybe it is because I made my journey a slow one this time or maybe it is because I had several revelations this time but this time was and will always be it.
I look at myself in the mirror and am shocked and elated at what I see looking back. To get up in the morning and go to the gym for 5:00 a.m. 5 days a week. To open my closet and have a choice of what I want to wear instead of picking 1 of the 5 outfits I own. To not panic because I have a special occasion to go to and have to go shopping. To be able to say I am going on vacation and I want to lose 3 pounds instead of 30 or 60 or 90 pounds before I go. Who is this person??? This person is an extremely happy one.
My journey has been a lifelong one and has taught me so much. The most important thing I have learned is to stop being so hard on myself and accept myself for who I am. Being so hard and unforgiving of myself is what propelled me to 290 pounds.