They need a boot camp for leaving the Military
Thursday, May 13, 2010
So I was doing well in staying in touch and everything but then.....I stop. And with it went my healthy eating and habits. What in the world is wrong with me.
Turns out NOTHING. Sure now I feel better right? NOT.
See the thing is we all have our ups and downs. We will have good days and bad. Gain a lb or loose one. Sometimes it will last longer than a day somedays maybe less than a day. The important thing is to never give up. I was starting to give up on myself. But I can't do that.
At the begining of the month I got a letter from the VA....My disability claim has been desided. After 11 years in the Navy a lot of things happend to me. I am now concidered a disabled Veteran. Not that that means I can just sit back and do nothing to help myself. It's not like I lost a leg. I am receiving disability due to Anxiety and Depression. It effects my day to day interactions. At first I was worried about this....does this mean that the government thinks I am crazy? No of course not. All it means is that the Government...or more specificaly the Department of Veteran Affairs feels that due to the stresses of the Navy I have become Depressed and suffer from Anxiety..to the point that it effects my ability to lead a productive life.
I don't get a special parking spot...although that would be soooooo cool. I don't have a sign on my car telling the world that I receive a check every month from the VA. It just means that I am not the same person I was when I joined the Navy.
I am still a Mom of 2 great kids. Although my 3 year old tests me every day.....I am still a wife. I served my country well for 11 years and though I am different because of that I have earned the right to call myself a Veteran....
This new chapter of my life began just over a year ago....April 25th 2009 was my last day in the Navy...since then I have moved from VA to NY, lived with my folks, bought a home, and now I am trying to learn how to be a Stay at Home Mom...
I am having to learn how to deal with my kids on a whole new level. They used to go to Daycare from 5am to 5pm....now they are home. I have to learn how to budget my time. The Navy used to do that for me.
This new road is a hard one. At 31 I have to learn how to be a civilian how to interact with a changing world with out the constrains of the Military. I started Sparkpeople while I was still on Active duty.....it is one of the few things I still have from while I was in. I need to use this as a cruch for a while to help me get back on my feet...and that is ok.
I wish for everyone who reads this to have a wonderful day. Don't forget that inspiration comes from many places. Stop and smell that rose today....it could just turn your day around.