food is not an Advil...it wont take the pain away!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
"On Monday Ill start dieting" I said... but I forgot I don't do Mondays ! OMG Have I been in trouble lately?! I've been OFF the wagon... I think I crashed my wagon LOL!!!
But I'm back...and back for good!
What has happened in this 2 months I've been out:
-I gained weight
-I bought a car...FINALLY!
-I turned 27....OUCH!
-My hair is longer!
-I'm still alive... we gotta be happy for that! hehe
I've been having major up's&down's and I let myself go...I could have stopped but I just didn't care...I've been going through some emotional stuff (I'm not using this as an excuse, I take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for what I've been eating and drinking) and I took it out on food instead of taking it out at the gym!
I found out food can do nothing but just make me feel "happy" or "OK" for a while but afterwards the pain is always there!
I'm still struggling emotionally...very much struggling, but I'm trying to control myself whenever I have the "FOOD IS GONNA HELP ME!" thought.
Last week I went back to the gym and this week I started cutting back carbs & sugar, mainly eating proteins and salads...I haven't weighted since a month or so ago but I'll weight in on Monday to see how much I've gained and start with the 'damage control'
So yes, I'm back.. a lil wounded but I'm back, taking full responsibility for what I've done and for what I didn't do!
Hope to see u around guys, I've missed u like crazy!!!
God bless u all!!