Commitment and Other Challenges
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Let's start with the good news...and there's lots of it!
1) I finished my master's degree in two semesters. It was overwhelming at times, and I'm rather burnt out on all things academic, but it's done.
2) I've continued my water drinking streak for 138 consecutive days now. I've had a couple close calls with breaking the streak -- such as a day last week when I realized at 10:22pm that I hadn't had ANY water that day! There was a lot of chugging involved, and a few middle of the night trips to the bathroom, but the streak remained intact. I do not intend to break it. Ever.
3) I got a teaching job for next year!!! I'll be teaching fifth grade at a school just outside of Atlanta less than 2 miles from where we'll be living. Job competition among teachers is fierce right now. I was told that there were nearly 300 applicants for the job, so I feel incredibly blessed to get it. It's such a relief to know that I'll be working this fall. I've missed teaching quite a bit this year, and the second income will come in handy, too.
4) I'm moving back to Atlanta in less than 10 weeks! This is a good thing overall because I really miss living in a big city, but the transition will be rough. I need to move back in late-July to start my new job, but M will still be living in Alabama until mid-September because that's when his job ends. I hate, hate, hate that I won't be able to see him every night, but we knew this time would come eventually. I'll drive back and forth on weekends, and we'll try to make the most of it. At least it's only temporary. Hopefully the time will fly by.
5) I've stayed in ONEderland. I wish I could say that I've had a ton of weight loss in these last couple months, but that has not been the case. I definitely put my health and weight loss on the back burner for a time while I finished all of my school work and hunted for jobs. The job search process was pretty time intensive, too, because I had to make several trips back and forth between Montgomery and Atlanta for interviews, and the drive alone would suck up over 5 hours of my day. Add to that the fact that I would typically dine out with friends in Atlanta while I was there, and I'm honestly amazed that I haven't seen a "200" on the scale once in the last month. I've held pretty steadily between 197 and 199. I think that's an accomplishment!
So where's my head at today?
Despite my list of accomplishments, I'm a little frustrated that I haven't been more effective with the weight loss this year. [Wait...is that perfectionism rearing its ugly head again?!? Where did that come from?!?!] When I started the year, I thought it would be the perfect time for me to lose a lot of weight because I wasn't working full-time, and I had more control over my schedule.
But there is always something capable of standing in my way, and there always will be if I let it.
I have not been nearly as committed to this process as I should have been if I wanted to see the results I'm looking for. I've made some great and healthy changes in my life this year (i.e. drinking water), but there's a lot more that I need to change. A LOT more. For one, I need to discover my inner athlete (we've never met before) and spend some time exercising. I also need to set some new fitness-related goals for myself and think of some new SparkStreaks to incorporate. Finally, I need to stop dwelling on the ways I've messed up in the past, and start looking forward to the ways I can be successful from here on out. I need to make some changes in my life, but there's no better time to do it than now. I'm turning 32 in a couple days, and I don't want to have any more birthdays where I'm dealing with the same issues and regrets over and over. It's time to move forward, stop making excuses, and that's what I'm going to do.