Big dark hole

It's unrealistic I suppose to think I'm going to sail through this recuperation time without any problems. That doesn't mean I was looking for them though.

After the op I have found it more and more difficult to keep a lid on my emotional eating and I have found myself eating savoury, sweet, savoury throughout the evening. Thankfully it's not been a huge overeat, but it's not keeping to my healthy eating programme. I'm still the same weight, at least I've not put on weight so obviously it's not been a hideous overeat but it has done nothing for my self image.

Part of the problem is that I've run out of st john's wort which I take to keep my mood up, thankfully I managed to get out yesterday and get some more. Hopefully that will help. Just having it has made me feel more positive. Today, I've been more in control of what I'm eating and more positive so fingers crossed.

It's now a week since the op on my knee and I'm still in a fair bit of pain and still having to use crutches, so I'm still limited as far as getting out and about, please no more rom coms or reruns of law and order.... The knitting is helping keep my hands busy. I've just finished a shrug for my daughter and am about to start on a jacket for my granddaughter.

BUTTTTTTTT
I wanna be able to do anything that I want to
I want to go out for a run
I want to be able to have a social life again
Stamping feet (ouch that hurt)

Sorry I know I've got my bottom lip stuck out and I sound like a petulant child but I don't do ill and helpless well.

I know, I'm impatient and stubborn