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Tuesday, May 25, 2010

It's unrealistic I suppose to think I'm going to sail through this recuperation time without any problems. That doesn't mean I was looking for them though.

After the op I have found it more and more difficult to keep a lid on my emotional eating and I have found myself eating savoury, sweet, savoury throughout the evening. Thankfully it's not been a huge overeat, but it's not keeping to my healthy eating programme. I'm still the same weight, at least I've not put on weight so obviously it's not been a hideous overeat but it has done nothing for my self image.

Part of the problem is that I've run out of st john's wort which I take to keep my mood up, thankfully I managed to get out yesterday and get some more. Hopefully that will help. Just having it has made me feel more positive. Today, I've been more in control of what I'm eating and more positive so fingers crossed.

It's now a week since the op on my knee and I'm still in a fair bit of pain and still having to use crutches, so I'm still limited as far as getting out and about, please no more rom coms or reruns of law and order.... The knitting is helping keep my hands busy. I've just finished a shrug for my daughter and am about to start on a jacket for my granddaughter.

BUTTTTTTTT
I wanna be able to do anything that I want to
I want to go out for a run
I want to be able to have a social life again
Stamping feet (ouch that hurt)

Sorry I know I've got my bottom lip stuck out and I sound like a petulant child but I don't do ill and helpless well.

I know, I'm impatient and stubborn
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  • KASEYCOFF
    Yep, I hear you: it's aggravating, it's frustrating - but you WILL get there. This is just a detour. The hardest thing we have to learn isn't about diet, or exercise, or any of that. The hardest thing we have to learn is PATIENCE. :-) p.s. Okay, no more romcoms or old series reruns. What about some silent greats, like Charlie Chaplin, Laurel & Hardy--?
    3887 days ago
  • LITTLEKELT
    I don't think you sound like a petulant child at all! You sound like a justifiably fed up woman! It was rotten luck that you fell and hurt your knee, just when you were doing so well. You'd have to be a total saint not to be a bit down about it- don't think you're a total saint, are you?
    I quite like Lizzie888's suggestion that sometime in the future you'll be able to see this as a real turning point in your life. Life before knee, BK, and life after knee, AK.
    Glad you've got your St John's wort. You don't want to be coping with anything more than you have to.
    Have you tried SHOUK2BEXTREME's suggestion of doing upper body exercises and crunches? That would show true dedication!
    Anyway, have a good day. One day closer to being fit and well again.
    Cheers, X
    3887 days ago
  • LIZZIE888
    Its not forever, even if it feels like that at the moment. But knowing you need to give it time and actually giving it time are two different things.

    Look at it another way... think back a year - just one year, which isn't very long really - and think how you were then...

    You couldn't run then, but not because you were recovering from an operation, because you were unfit. Chances are a year ago you might have relished the opportunity to sit around for a few weeks - now its a completely foreign notion to you.

    You have turned your life around on so many levels; perhaps in some ways this time out is a blessing, forcing you to stop and take stock of where you are, what you've achieved and what you still want to do. Reflective practice is always helpful and you would never have done that under your own steam - you had too much to do!

    I think in a couple of years time, when you're at your ideal health, you'll look back on this time and see it as the end of one stage and the beginning of another. needless to say you don't see that now, as you're still tangled with the present.

    Yes there will be emotional eating - but there'll be far more eating that's in line with your goals. Its a shame there isn't someone sitting on our shoulder, cheering us on, every time we make a good food choice - a bit like in Tom and Jerry... Because I know it can feel very lonely.

    You're going to be ok... in every sense!


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    3888 days ago
  • SLENDERCLAIRE
    I feel your frustration... Chin up, it's the strongest people that make the worst patients!

    You must be doing amazingly well to keep your weight static while so immobilised, so well done you - you can be proud of yourself!
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    3888 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5651955
    Keep your chin up. You'll be back to doing your normal routine soon enough, but you must let everything heal up first. You could always do upper body strength workouts, and maybe some crunches too. Hope you get back to YOU soon, and if you need any help I'm here for you.

    Susan, your SP CLASS co-leader
    3888 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5826188
    I can understand where you are so well, I would be a right mess if I could not get on with my life like normal. Last time I lost some weight I got to about a stone heavier than I am now and then I damaged my foot and could not exercise as I wanted for months while it was investigated and I piled on all the weight again.

    You are doing so well if you are not gaining whilst you are less mobile. Hope you can keep moving and the pain goes soon! emoticon
    3888 days ago
  • ANDREWMOM
    You have your right to be that way... I am and that is just the way I deal with things. Have patience and I hope you heal quickly!
    3888 days ago
  • 7KG6DA7
    Get back to doing what you want to do that is good and dump those bad thoughts that will cause problems now and in the future !
    3888 days ago
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