In the words of Velvet Revolver-"Its been a long year........"
Thursday, May 27, 2010
It's been a little over a year now since the morning I got up and COULDN'T get up. So much has changed. I could write all I've lost OR I could tell you the amazing turn my life has taken!!! I can get up each day and ,barring the monthly drs appointments,I can do whatever I please!! I can sketch my kitties or one of the many other animals around here or I can paint a new pic for the "gallery" I have in my kitchen. Works of mine and others. I can scan through my cookbooks and pick a few things to whip up and then get on the phone and invite a few work-weary friends over for a meal. I can walk down the lane and visit with the horses or spend the entire day re-reading Nin or a Brotherhood novel-how I love those men! Each day is a full out fashion event for me. No more " who will I offend or freak out?" my goth flag flies free! I have time to write real letters to friends, give quick calls to friends that just need someone to listen, to pray for the people in my life that need the touch of the hand of God. I have time to actually MAKE the clothes I design. Have time to teach the younger ones to sew and cook. I can finally drive again so I shop on off hours with no crowds and visit those who have heard way too much of only their own voice. I get to go to concerts and then revel in the afterglow the next day while everyone else drags off to work. I get to watch the sun come up at 4:45 in the morning or get up at 3 to sit outside in the glow of a giant full moon, a barn cat in my lap.
Do I still have cancer? Yes. On a scale of one to five is the pain like 30??? You betcha!! Was I mortified when I had to go to the Pearl Jam concert a few weeks ago in a wheelchair because it was too far to walk from the parking lot to the arena? Oh yeah!!! But as I walked down the isle in the dark and all the people with me gave me the thumbs up, I was absolutely STOKED!!! We can go either way in life. We can either bemoan every affront or we can revel in the good fortune of the serendipity of our lives!! My life ROCKS!!!! I just hope there is a LOT more of it left!!