Can it possibly be, someone is being nice? Reaction to my running.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
I completed week 6 of c25k this week woohoo. Even when it was raining I brought a $1 plastic poncho and ran with that and a cap on (wasn't that bad really).
Since that last time my 'diet' has never been brought up between my bf and I. When I told him I had lost 5cm to my thighs the night after I done my last measurement he didn't really seem to grasp what I was saying. Maybe I wasn't explaining myself well enough my Japanese gets odd sometimes. Oh well.
I've mentioned my running casually since, ie morning text I mention I'm about to go out for a run if I am etc.
But last week he's like, you've gotten thinner haven't you. I reply, a little bit.....
And then later he's like, you've really gotten thinner I can feel it on your stomach he says as he prod my belly. I admit yes, that is something I'm really noticing as well. But of course feels nice when someone notices right!
So tonight I'm texting bf like we usually do in the evenings. He anounces he ate dinner (for once). I congratulate him cos he skips far too many meals.
And then he suddenly goes "You're really working hard at the exercise aren't you."
Huh? You brought this up suddenly?! I ask.
He replies, "You've been trying hard with the running, I'm happy your doing that."
I'm like well I might quit still already lol
He's like but you're trying so hard
I was like well yeah it's turning out to be kinda fun.
Then he asks, I'm kinda interested in what you've been eating??
I downplay it saying I just eat normally not going into detail. He wants to know more he can ask again and I'll tell him further (home cooked healthy meals with lots of fruit and veg).
Now, there's two ways to take all this. My old way of thinking would be 'he is enouraging me with running because he doesn't like me as I am, fat etc and is checking up on my food.
But that is my old negative thinking.
My new way is, maybe he's just trying to be suportive and encouraging, and is happy to see me putting effort into something?
And maybe he is just curious as to how I'm losing weight? And is just concerned I am eating some crash diet (Yesterday I told him to eat properly :P and he replied you too ;P so maybe he thinks I'm not eating)
Gosh someone being nice, imagine!
Then after this exchange I sat down and ate a pizza!! But it's ok was one person size fresh one with extra veggies and pineapple on (I really really like pineapple on pizza for some odd reason), fully planned and tracked before I even ate it :D And it was delicious!