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Still standing, but still struggling

Saturday, June 12, 2010

I promised myself that I would start eating better and excercising more once the univeristy's semester ended and work slowed down. I haven't really stuck to that as well as I'd like. I am getting some exercise in - the weather's been nice for the most part, so I've been walking a couple miles a day. Not as far nor as fast as I should, but better than nothing.

Food has been another matter. I just haven't had the will to do much cooking, so I'm eating way too much processed food with too few nutrients. I'm trying to get a handle on it, but it's been hard.

I had a thought this morning as I was getting ready for my walk. I'm always talking about 'the big picture' at work because people never seem to consider how they function as part of the whole. But when I look at 'the big picture in my own life, I'm overwhelmed. There's just too much. So, maybe for myself I need to focus on the little things.

- I'm not going to focus on the 100+ pounds I need to lose. I'm going to expend 500 more calories today than I take in.
- I'm not going to worry about being the slowest walker on the path. I'm just going to record that I walked for 38 minutes, and covered two miles in that time.
- I'm not going to beat myself up over everything I fail to accomplish today. I'm going to acknowledge what I do get done, and tackle something else tomorrow.
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  • MNTWINSGAL
    That's a great plan, Carren! It's a tough journey, but well worth the efforts we make in order to complete it. And a bit "WOO HOO" to you for all the extra walking you've been doing!

    We are all in the same boat....we are all struggling, but the important thing is that we aren't going to give up.

    Let's be there for each other!

    ~Sharon
    3882 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5715589
    Sorry to hear you are struggling...we all go through it...trust me!

    But I agree with your goals. Don't think of the 100+ lbs. Take 5 lbs at a time! When I started out with a goal of 100 lbs to lose it was very overwhelming. For 1 it was like "How did I let myself get this far out of control?" It was depressing. And then it was like I have 100 lbs to lose? Its so much. But then I started taking it week by week...lb by lb. And make sure you set rewards for your small goals. Thats SUPER important!

    For your 2nd goal...its not about how fast or how far you walk...its all about the movement. If you are moving you are burning calories! Take small steps. So what if you are the slowest on the trail...at least you are out there doing something. Keep at it and soon you'll add another mile...then you can work on speed! It all takes time and conditioning!

    And remember...EVERY one of us here struggle now and then. We are in fact only human. Something I learned is that you can't expect to be perfect. My trying to be perfect in eating and exercise has only led me to binge and binge again. Take one day at a time. If it helps you, come up with small daily goals. Like walking for 30 minutes. Or 1 day not have a pop. Come up with things that really work for you!

    And remember...you have friends here that really care about you and really want you to succeed! I am here whenever you need a friend or even a kick in the pants!
    3882 days ago
  • MUGGLE_MOM
    Awe Carren,
    I'm so sorry that you're still struggling. I fully agree that the big picture in life is overwhelming. I love the expend 500 more calories than you take in idea. I had a WW leader who said she didn't lose 100 pounds, she lost 5 pounds 20 times. Its all in the perspective.

    You're not the slowest walker on the trail. I struggle to keep up with you. Besides, it has nothing to do with speed, or distance, or really anyone else out there. Its all about you. Is your heart rate up? Are you getting in a good workout? The specifics don't matter. Don't judge yourself other on your accomplishments other that to congratulate yourself for getting the job done. We all can't finish first.

    I am impressed that you're getting the mileage in. Keep up the awesome work.

    Wishing you only the best!
    3882 days ago
  • POLLKAT
    Yes, take small steps and worry about the most important thing you have problems with first. Once you feel you have a handle on that, then work on something else. Losing weight and being healthy is your goal, however, it is a LIFETIME journey. There is no time frame. You simply need to be consistent, diligent and persevere. You will do it. Just don't let it overwhelm you. It will all come to fruition.
    3882 days ago
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