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This is not going well...

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Today, I set a record for the highest weight since 2000. This is not good. The scale is NOT going in the direction it needs to go. I have not been dedicated enough. I have not been faithful to eat right. I have not been faithful to ME. I am frustrated, depressed, tired, and feel like a puffed up blow fish. I am not happy.
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  • TSTRING
    Edugrad,
    Thank you. My biggest struggle is portion control and getting my butt moving. I seem to get so depressed because I'm getting bigger and bigger, and eat more, only to get bigger still. :( It's something I have to figure out. I am still tracking my food daily. It's a lot.
    3749 days ago
  • EDUCGRAD
    You CAN do this,start with small ,manageable goals.Track your food.you CAN do this,let me know what your biggest strggles are so I can help,you can sparkmail if you like.I know you will do this. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3749 days ago
  • TSTRING
    Gnu,
    Thank you so much again. It's really just a matter of me DECIDING to do the right thing. Heart attack and stroke kills EVERYONE in my family. If I don't change, I'm headed down that road too. I'm so heavy for my 5'6 frame! 193 is TOO much! I can feel it too. I huff and puff with any little activity. I don't know why I can't seem to just DO it! Please pray for me. It's my responsibility, and I know it!
    Love,
    Trace~
    3749 days ago
  • GNUATTITUDE
    Tracey, let's just look at this for what it is: a wake up call. I got a loud and clear one from my recent blood work. And I'm making changes. I'm not going to tell you that I hit 100% every day, because I don't. But I take it one choice at a time. I've been logging food--all of it. I've purged the pantry of the things I know shouldn't be in there. And while I don't always get in my 30 minutes of exercise a day, I average more than that during the week.

    The fact of the matter is that I have a lot of risk factors, just like my mother did, for heart attack or stroke and diabetes. I'm already 5 years older than she was when she died. It isn't vanity; I don't want to die before my time.

    Are you weighing yourself obsessively? I got rid of my scale at home when I realized I was weighing myself several times a day and the number might be deceiving, especially later in the day. I can only weigh now if I make an effort to do it at school in the nurse's office or when I have a medical appointment. This way I have to trust that the efforts I make are working, and you know what? They do.

    Would it help if we check in with each other every day? I'm willing.
    3749 days ago
  • MYFEETHURT
    Well...what are we going to do about this? I read your blog from yesterday and nearly answered since you sounded a lot like me. I'm frustrated as well. But...know...let's make that a big BUT...I know I'm still over eating. I don't get all the things about carbs, what all folic acid does for you, how water can help you lose weight...but I do get the simple fact of...you've got to work off more calories then you take in to lose weight. LOL And that, my friend, is really all we have to get. And then we...and I do mean WE...have to stick to it. My scale sort of stays in a little range...lose a few...gain them back...sort of thing. I'll sure try to kick your butt if you will kick mine. Maybe we can motivate each other to stay on track. I know we can do this...we just have to stick with it. emoticon
    3751 days ago
  • TRACYY
    Don't let it get you down. We all have been there with you. The biggest thing is you realize what you're doing and YOU can change the direction of the scales, one day at a time. We're all here for you at SP and we know you can do it! Big hugs! emoticon emoticon
    3751 days ago
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