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Monday, June 21, 2010

It's MONDAY. That in itself should be enough, however, today one of the girls came in that I rarely see, and I think she made the trip just to tell me that she was looking at pictures from a Christmas party about five years ago, and that I looked a LOT different then. Of course I did. I was ony 130 pounds soaking wet, and now I'm 60 pounds heavier. I've been having a hard enough time lately dealing with what I've done to myself again ALL BY MYSELF without this today. :(
Funny thing is, I woke up with a new attitude. What do I WANT to weigh? Instead of looking at what I weigh now and need to lose, I was going to "see" 135-140 and take it one choice at a time. "Will THIS choice get me closer to 135?" Well, she came in and bursted my hopeful bubble.
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  • STAYPRESENT
    Hi Tracey,

    A little slow in responding, however I just wanted to add that I'm in your corner, too. I'm so sorry you had to go through that with the girl's comments. I'm proud of you for turning it around and seeing some new ways to approach the whole weight reduction thing.

    I remember the nutritionist (and I'm sure many others) saying that I needed to take diet out of my vocabulary. She said that I just needed to learn to eat healthy. It sounds like what you are saying.

    Terri
    3737 days ago
  • TSTRING
    Thanks, Gnu! Yes, I agree. Today I'm feeling a little better. It sent me into a Rotel/Cheese dip kind of night last night, but today, I've eaten a banana, a Paradise Bakery salad, a cup of soup, and I am asking myself every moment, does THIS take me closer to 135? :) I do know that God is bigger than any of this stuff, and he knows what I need before I ask.
    Thank you for being such an encouragement!

    NWilker: You are the angel that also keeps pushing me the right direction. Thank you SO much for believing in me.

    Edugrad: Thank you for never failing to check in with me, and encouraging me as well.

    I don't know what I'd do without a good circle of support. I appreciate you all more than you know!

    Fevans: Thank you for working with me towards our goal, and reminding me what I can do.

    Nana: Thanks for the awesome advice, and caring.
    3744 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/22/2010 3:13:05 PM
  • GNUATTITUDE
    "This is a test. This is only a test."

    I think NANA662 has the right idea, though I think you and she may be giving this gal more of a benefit of the doubt that I would have. I think she was looking for ego strokes. "Proud of herself", indeed!

    Fight "matter of fact" with "matter of fact". When this happens again (and we all know the toxic people show their toxic faces all the time) put them on the spot and ask, "So what's your point?" Then move on as if it never happened, maybe say a prayer for the person (Father forgive them, for they know not what they do.)

    The fact of the matter is that we can't control what other people think or say or do. But we can control all of those things in ourselves. We don't have to receive the negative messages. I spent much of this past spring replacing toxic messages I heard with what God's Word says about me and who I am.

    I've been reading Joyce Meyer's book "Look Great, Feel Great". It's pretty much standard stuff, except with a Christian spin. It might be worth getting your hands on a copy. I very much like your strategy, and in fact it's in the book. Begin to speak and act like the person your vision. "I am healthy. I make good choices. My Father supplies all that I need. I am fearfully and wonderfully made." There's power in them thar words, my friend.




    3744 days ago
  • FEVANS
    You know what I think that is a great ideal, I know that you can do this and don't give up, I am still trying myself and I think that I am going to try your ideal as well. Have a Blessed week and keep your head held high.


    Felicia
    3745 days ago
  • EDUCGRAD
    You CAN do this,don't let ANYONE get you down. I have people at work who make fun of me as I eat healthy.I've just learned to ignore them
    3745 days ago
  • NWILKER
    Poop on her! You aren't doing this for anyone but you, and that is all that should matter!
    You are going to rock this week, i know it!
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    3746 days ago
  • TSTRING
    I don't think she was trying to be hurtful. She's just a very "matter of fact" kind of gal. The only response I could think of in the midst of the shock was: "Well, that's obvious. Five years ago I was 130 pounds soaking wet. Look at me now." Then she said, "Well, I'm proud of myself. I'm back down to where I was when I worked here a year and a half ago." It didn't do a THING for my esteem, that's for sure. But it is what it is, and it's the TRUTH.
    3746 days ago
  • NANA662
    It is possible that she just wanted to inspire you BUT it sounded hurtful the way it was put. Call her on it...say "And your telling me this because?" Or " What possible reason do you have for telling me this?" If you can not avoid toxic people do stand up to them. They will know they can not make you feel bad if you do not let them and they will stop this destructive behavior towards you.
    Remember the good attitude you woke up with and treat today as a new day a new start.
    3746 days ago
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