Change of mindset

It's been one heck of a busy week with work, so I slipped on watching my calories as close, but I still managed to come out of it with a loss. This reminded me of my mindset from last year and I had to laugh at myself! I had read an article in Psychology Today talking about weight and how our bodies are pre-programmed to be a certain weight. I Know this is all starting to sound crazy, but follow me here. So, if we just eat right and don't lay around then the body will find the ideal weight and we don't need to do all the yo-yo dieting..blah blah blah. Ok, maybe that didn't make any sense. What I was getting at is that I had convinced myself that I was meant to be 185, but what I didn't know at the time was that I wasn't eating often enough or very good for that matter. Now, however, that all comes back to me when my body is dropping the weight and actually getting down to that ideal weight.
The worst part of this lifestyle change is that I've found myself counting other peoples calories! I'm a restaurant manager, so part of me wants to sell that extra slice of pie, but the new spark side of me is saying,'Whoa! They both already ordered 1000 calories a piece!' Every time I start thinking about it I feel so bad. I'm not judging the people, just the food they are eating....the food I'm selling. I think I need a career change.