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The Non-Eater

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Today is my first full day on Spark and already I'm off to a not so good start. Yesterday I finally took on the daunting task of rearranging and throwing away clothes. It was 80 degrees here in Pittsburgh last night and the sunless evening was no help to the humidity. Nevertheless, I worked for four hours refolding, stacking, arranging, and organizing all of my clothes. I had to let go of some good friends along the way. Some that I haven't put on in ages, others that I had to admit just didn't fit.

The problem with all of this rigorous work was that I hadn't eaten anything since lunch at work around 2:30 which, sad to say, was a gordita from Taco Bell. It was at that time that I realized I needed to stop killing myself and logged on to Spark. But after I signed up and read some articles and stories, I realized I had NONE of the foods I needed in my house to make a good meal. When my husband asked me if I wanted Subway for dinner, I declined still scared out of my wits that I wouldn't choose something healthy enough (even though now as I think about it, Subway isn't the worst fast food place I could've got some dinner). So I worked and sweat and went to bed empty and now... I am starving!

Breakfast will by far be one of my biggest hurdles because on top of not liking to wake up, I rarely cook. My husband, in addition to only gaining like ten pounds in six years, is a habitual snacker and is thus usually full all the time. A coworker suggested a recipe to me yesterday she was shocked to find out I do not own a mixer... or a whisk... or a mallet. Hey look I'm sorry, but I am Chef Boy-r-dont. My mother was a stay at home mom, so I didn't feel like I need to learn how to cook. My siblings, an older brother and younger sister (who are average sized) picked up cooking on their own, but me? Uh, yes, China King? I need the usual....

So here I am. At work, sipping tea with Splenda, starving. I did have time to grab some lettuce, and dressing for lunch and I read some great recipes that I hope to shop for after work. But right now? I work. Staring at the clock. Waiting for the next two hours before I can go to lunch. Praying this tea was a quiche.
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    Just know that taking small steps initially is okay, but don't deprive yourself of eating, if it's a bad choice, the next meal you can make it right! In this program "when you know better, you do better", so stay encouraged, we're on this journey together! Have a great day!! emoticon
    3853 days ago
    Don't give up. You've just begun. The important thing is that you BEGUN.... keep moving forward, no matter how slow and you WILL reach your goals.

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    3854 days ago
    One day at a time. It's not a race, so getting off to a "not so good start" is not horrible. The good news is that you got off to a start!! That's the important part.

    Hang in there, go at your own pace, and you'll be amazed at the results.

    3854 days ago
  • KEELY128
    Take you time and dont be so hard on yourself. I have also not denied myself good foods that I love, it's not been an easy journey for me but I eat everything in moderation. Hang in there! And Good Luck!
    3854 days ago
    The first step is all about just taking the step. Which you've done, you'll get there, just don't get TOO down on yourself! You can do it!
    3854 days ago
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