I was lost...now, hopefully, I'm found

I've fallen WAY off the wagon.

I've put on more than 40 of the pounds I worked so hard to lose. My blood pressure is up. I'm lethargic. I can't walk and talk at the same time. My back hurts again. My feet hurt again. I don't sleep well. I'm near depression again.

I'm scared beyond belief. I can't believe I let myself fall into this pit once again.

Well, I can't feel sorry for myself. I can't do anything but put my head down and push forward.

I am back up to 246...after being as low as 203.

I don't want to belabor this...I just want to do something about it.

So, I'm signing back on to Spark after being gone for months and months.

I'm signing back on for the headaches and grumbling stomach of those first two weeks where your body is adjusting to the change.

But I'm also signing back on for hope and a chance at feeling great about myself and feeling great physically.

So...here...I...come.