Monday, July 26, 2010
It's been a while... I knew this would happen. As a teacher, and someone who really thrives on built-in routines, summer is a really difficult time. You would think that having entire days with nothing on the schedule, and all this beautiful weather, that I'd be out there enjoying the most active life during this time of the year. For me, it's the complete opposite. Here comes a time of sleeping in till noon, eating because I have free time, succumbing to the pull of daytime television (who knew that People's Court and Judge Mathis could be SO entertaining!), and the energy and motivation to actually go out with friends for meals and, gulp, DRINKS.. which, for me, ultimately leads to more eating.
As the summer approached, I felt myself getting more and more anxious about the unlimited free time. You can even see in a series of blogs that my anxiety and emotional status around it started to actually affect my physical motivation. I started falling off track even before... and I kept saying, "Oh, THIS time I'm back on track.." then 2 weeks later, "No no, THIS time, for real."
Well, after a weekend with the in-laws, I gained a little bit of perspective and got a little bit re-inspired. EVERYONE I saw said, "Oh my gosh! You look fantastic! You have lost SO much weight!" Even though I hadn't seriously done anything in about a month, I hadn't actually gained anything.. even though it feels like I'm fatter because my body isn't as firm or tight from working out, I'm still the same weight I was. So, I've been maintaining really well.
SO, their words had a real impact on me. I like positive reinforcement! What if the next time they see me, I'm even thinner and healthier! It gave me a little kick in the butt. But, I realized I needed to shift my focus a little bit. Part of the demotivation from before was the slower weight-loss per week compounded by the fact that even having lost 25 lbs, I was still NO WHERE near my end goal.
Here's what I decided to do. I just re-shifted my goals on Spark to reflect "medium-goal" rather than my long-term one. So, I'm keeping my long-term goals set in my head and with my doctor... everyone around me knows where I hope to be in the end. Initially, I was at 205 trying to get to 155-160. Now, I'm about 184 and setting a medium goal to get to 175 by mid-September. Still a challenge, but still totally doable and once I reach that.. I'll feel super good and be that much closer to my end goal. Reaching 175 by September 15th seems fair, reasonable and exciting.. I know that I can do it if I just stay focused for a little longer. Then I can shift my goals again... reignite and tell myself, "just stay focused for a few more weeks."