Vacation and a new me
Thursday, August 05, 2010
I can't believe our vacation has come and gone so quickly. We went back home to California to visit family and friends most of which we had not seen in 4-5 years.
It was a great trip and we got to see everyone we had missed so much.
The last time we saw everyone I was about 180-185 pounds and very unhappy with myself, I suffering from anxiety and depression. I haven't see many people that would notice any change in me since I started my journey of working on myself this year, I had no idea what to expect. I decided to expect nothing since I did this for me not for anyone else or what they think of me. I was completely overwhelmed with the support, acknowledgement, and compliments I received. I believe I have found the fountain of youth...... exercise, water, and healthy diet. I can't believe how many people said I looked younger and better then ever. I was not always a heavy person, I was pretty thin until I lost my my parents and gained a ton of weight from antideppressants. It is hard to believe that I look younger then 4-5 years ago, but hey who am I to argue.
It was nice to have people acknowledge my hard work. I would still like to loose 10-15 more pounds but I feel a little less stressed out about it, like it will come off but its not a race to get there. I also feel renewed and re-energized to keep going and continue on my new lifestyle, and maybe a little pressured to keep it up. I think the pressure is good helps me keep from relaxing on diet and exercise.
My husband got so many compliments on his skin and weight as well. My new lifestyle has rubbed off on my husband who really had no weight to loose. He is eatting better, working out and taking better care of himself.
I saw my best friend while in Cali. She is also on spark. She looks fantastic! We talk daily but seeing her look better then ever was so great. I know she can accomplish her goals and we can continue to inspire and motivate each other. She is coming out to visit me in a few weeks and I cant wait to see more changes in her and maybe a few in myself.
I have not bought too many new clothes, still trying to get down a few pounds. I actually wore clothes on the trip that were nearly new from 2002! Yes thats' right i wore clothes from 8 years ago before i gained this weight. It was pretty awesome and im sure nobody even noticed. I did get a few new pairs of jeans size 8's while in Cali. I feel almost back to my old self? No I think not, almost into my new self? Maybe a combo of both. i just know i feel so much happier and healthier!