That's what I've been telling myself for weeks now. If someone else had said it, it would have resulted in me being in a real funk, but when I say it to myself, it typically ends up that I have found the trigger button that gets me to take action as opposed to sitting on my buns... I know that it's not a good idea to beat myself up emotionally, but I don't know how many workouts I would have actually made it to without this internal dialog.
My plan is to eat healthy, within my calorie range, and work out 4-5 days a week. Workouts are scheduled for T-W-TH & S-S. Tuesday and Saturday consume about 2 hours at the gym, as I do a very full strength training routine and follow with 30-50 minutes of cardio on the elliptical. Thursday and Sunday are planned with just cardio. Wednesday is cardio only, but is also a flex day. If I need a little me time, it's allowed without the "don't be lazy" conversation I have with myself.
My job has been even more demanding lately and I'm so eager for the Labor Day weekend. I will be spending a day out of town and will be working on swapping days to keep my momentum going strong. Considering that my night away from home will be spent with friends drinking ample quantities of tequila & margaritas (no driving, whoo hoo!), making sure my body is burning the max number of calories will be a fun little balancing act.
I'm pretty much a creature of comfort and like routine, so when an opportunity comes along and I get to really cut loose, it makes for a more balanced life.
Until then, I'll be working at my job (55-60 hours a week), working on the cosmetics of my old car in preparation for sale (5.25 hours manually polishing last Sunday alone), and working out. It may sound sad to say it, but I'm a little grateful that I don't have any children to give me more excuses to fail myself. My downtime is so brief anymore that when I get a few hours, I can tend to just melt into a mushy blob. Not entirely mushy, my shoulders are feeling pretty buff!
There's plenty of time for sleep later. Tomorrow will be a new day and things will get better. I'm just tired. Had to put two of my pets down yesterday and with everything else, I need to push myself into doing what I know is good for me. One day at a time, one day after the other... Perhaps tomorrow will be the day that I start with a more uptone attitude. All I can do is work on today. Yesterday is gone, what's done is done, and today is all I have right now.
A very bright spot in my month is that a super sweet customer just brought me a bouquet of English lavender to thank me for staying late for him last night. It just goes to show, the littlest things to some people can mean a great deal to others.