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In the beginning...

Sunday, August 22, 2010

I figured it was time to post a "Before" blog so that I have something to look back on and compare to. I am writing everything in this post in past tense, because I have lost 4 lbs since "the beginning" a week ago, and I want to always look at this as a part of my history that I won't be going back to.





In the beginning:

* I weighed 266.5 lbs
* I had a BMI of 43, classifying me as Class III obese.
* I wore a size 26 pants, and a 3x shirt.
* I felt self-conscious of my size
* I felt like I was not pretty, or attractive
* I felt older than my years (still in my 20's)
* I couldn't wear fashionable clothing because there wasn't much in my size, and what there was didn't look good on my body type.
* I felt overlooked for jobs and such because of my size.
* People made comments about my "weird body" or "fat stomach" at social functions.
* I was overlooked at the Dr. office with pain in my chest because they said, "You are obese, and just because of that you will have pain in various parts of your body. Lose weight." They didn't even do an exam.
* I let people talk to me negatively.
* I was always behind the camera instead of in front of it.
* I didn't exercise at all
* I binge ate for emotional comfort
* I didn't play with my children as much as I would have liked because I didn't have energy.
* I felt like I could never lose the weight.


All of these things are changing as I go through this process. Every. Last. One. :)
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  • NOTABOUTHEFACE
    We all need a place to start and you will be amazed the things that you will leave in your past as you move forward. Personally, I would start with not allowing people to speak to you about your weight in a negative way. I think you'd have to hold me back from opening a can of whoop arse on someone who had the audacity to say something. You are BEAUTIFUL from the beginning and you deserve to be spoken to with respect and for anyone who can't give you that small human decency should take a flyin leap! (In my humble opinion!) :)
    3847 days ago
  • BET212
    Congratulations on taking these first steps toward a healthy lifestyle. You are beautiful as you are but losing the weight will give you energy, a healthier body, and a sense of accomplishment. emoticon emoticon
    3848 days ago
  • MCJULIEO
    The longest journey begins with those first steps, and you are on your way...

    A familiar saying here on SP is: You can't fail as long as you don't quit!

    Success is its own encourager, but when things slow down and you need a little encouragement, Spark People is here...
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    3849 days ago
  • SG11505
    Great job with starting the process! Keep going, even through the tough times. It will be totally worth it! At least that is what I keep telling myself when I feel like food is the only thing that will make me feel better. I'm trying for me, my kids, my spouse.

    Good Luck!!! emoticon
    3849 days ago
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