Here's another entry with pics of healthy food, so for anyone who doesn't want to see/talk about food, please divert your eyes.
This was another one of my healthy lunches. I used a small roll from the deli, fat free cheese and shredded chicken breast that had been stewed all day with the contents of a taco seasoning packet. It was delish, and very low points (I forget how many exactly, but I think it was around 5 points + 1 for the cherries).
I have to admit that I've had a hard time sticking to my points this week, and as a result, I haven't lost anything more. That's pretty discouraging after having such a big loss last week (though I know a lot goes into that, including water weight, sodium intake, etc).
Most of the problem though, I know, is that I haven't kept to my points like I should. A lot of the slacking has to do with me getting bored or lazy, and some of it has to do with being crazy busy and not being as prepared for that as I should have been. Most of it though, comes from me responding to my emotions with the impulse of hunger.
Its been a frustrating week with my youngest daughter's school, though I think we have a few of the quirks worked out. Even more so than that, however, is the drama with one of my old friends.
It just keeps coming up in my life, no matter how much I try to let it go. Some awful things were done over the past couple of months after our friendship ended, and its hurt a lot, maybe even more so than the initial losing of the friendship. It has, however, taught me many things about both being and having friends.
1) I deserve to surround myself with people who treat others with respect.
2) I shouldn't have to justify my morals, faith, heartache, struggles, or emotions to a true friend. They should care because they care, and love you for who you are.
3) A friend is someone who is there for you when you need them. Even if all that means is that they listen and hug you back.
4) Sometimes there are limits, and its okay to draw the line.
5) People change, and that is part of growing up. Sometimes the people you were friends with years ago don't grow up to be people you can be close to as an adult.
I am going to look at this differently, and use it as motivation for my personal changes. Every time I am reminded, or get hurt again, get angry, or get sad, I am going to use that energy to exercise instead of eat. I am going to use that as motivation to improve my health instead of holding on to unhealthy parts of my past. I am going to change my mindset, and hopefully help my heart heal along the way.