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Tuesday, September 07, 2010

I'm taking stock of where I'm at, right here, right now.

I won't say I'm starting over. This is a life-long journey. I have no end goal. This will never end. Like I said, this is a life-long journey.

So right now this is what I'm doing, how I'm feeling and what changes I'd like to make.

Exercise: none at all. I want that to change.

Food choices: I'm not thinking much about what I'm eating, or how much I'm eating. I'm just eating. On a more positive note, I seem to be doing much less mindless eating. I don't seem to eat to fill a void. I'm not sure what clicked to make that change. I just realized here recently that it was different. That's a huge positive. Now I'd like to take stock of what I'm eating when I do eat. I want to be more accountable about what goes into my mouth.

Overall mood: I am feeling very low, defeated, and completely out of energy all the time. I'm sure better quality food and even a little exercise will go a long way toward improving this!

Physical well-being: For my weight, I am not doing so poorly. I could be a lot worse off. But there are so many things that could be better. I don't sleep comfortably at all. My legs and feet are achy by day. And again, I'll mention the overall tired feeling. Exercise ... slowly built up as I adjust to the frequency and intensity ... is what my body's trying to tell me it craves in these cues that seem to be just the opposite! Get up and do something!! The muscles are just wasting away ......

So here's everything spelled out, plain as day. What I see when I look in the mirror or at photos from a family gathering is not what I want to see! That is not me. That is a tired, worn out, uncared for version of me. Where am I hiding? Somewhere in there ... I'm determined to find me!
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    You got it sister! This is a lifelong journey and the thing to remember is that we learn from every thing that we do. You are not starting over, you are building on what you have already done. We all have those times when we shut down and give up a little. It is natural and human. You have the right idea tho, take stock and move forward. It dose sound like your body is telling you something, I have noticed when I don't exercise, I don't sleep well at all. We are all cheering for you. You will figure it out.
    3558 days ago
    You and me both. Let's kick this thing.
    3559 days ago
    I really love the way you're noticing what's going on with you and how you're feeling...as you say, "right now." Right now is always the starting place, isn't it? You'll find that energetic and cared-for version of yourself, yet...just keep on looking right where you are! This encouraged me to do a bit of the same. Thank you!
    3560 days ago
    right here, right now is all we've got. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't here yet. Thanks for reminding me of that fact. Welcome back, Theresa. Keep moving forward and creating your best healthy life.
    3560 days ago
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