It's ok not to be perfect!!!
Monday, September 20, 2010
I have to tell myself this, if I am ever going to succeed and reach my goals. I have always been a "diet" perfectionist! This is a very bad thing to be!I am really trying to make this my life, not a "diet", and make it so the struggles to get and stay healthy are done the right way! I am the most committed, a fast loser, an all or nothing type! So for about the last month, I have really been having some major struggles. I just can't seem to get it together. I just can't seem to commit?!?!?!? I think about it all day, everyday. That does not mean that I am doing what I should be doing. I plan every bite, I plan everything I can eat, and everything I can't eat! And by 2:00 everyday, I am on a new binge! This has to stop! I am making myself CRAZY!!! I am disappointed in myself everyday! So Saturday rolled around, and I decided instead of making such a strict schedule for myself, I would just try and make healthy decisions through out the day. I did not deprive myself, I even let myself have 3 oreos, with out eating half the bag! When I was hungry I ate. I did try and make healthy choices, opted for a veggies burger instead of beef, had grapes when I was hungry before dinner, instead of a bag of chips! All and all I felt great and was not kicking my own butt for not sticking to my plan for the day. Saturday night, I logged on and added my meals for the day, and they were in range! I am really thinking about trying some thing new. Just starting my day with a healthy meal and then carrying that with me through out the day. I will start adding my foods at the end of the day to make sure that I am still on track. I can no longer deal with the daily failure and the binges for 1 little mistake. I know this will help me. I know that my afternoon workouts will also increase again, because I haven't beat myself up all day. I believe these changes will help me to get on track in a healthy way.
Thank you all for listening, for all the support and for any suggestions that you have that may help!
Owe while I am being honest, I have also gained 3 pounds in the last week! I know you are all so kind, but it's not water weight, it is chocolate and chips weight! But this to shall be a thing of the past soon!