Me time disturbed
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Well my husband told me that he would watch the kids on Saturday so that I can go down to the Neptune Festival and enjoy myself. When I was in high school (20 years ago) I was an art major and I participated in the sand sculpture contest along with fellow art club members. We would sculpt for 4 to 5 hours and every year for 4 years straight we won first place in the freelance category. My art teacher was one of my best friends in school. She knew my family and knew about alot of struggles I had early in life with my home life. She knew my father was not supportive of my pursuing an art based career and she always told me how great I was and never give up on the dream of having a career that you truly enjoy. Life took me down a different path than my art, as I became sick when I was 21 and had to stop going to college for media advertising design to pay medical bills. Later I worked at a law firm and they said if I went for Law they would pay for 2 classes a semester. Needless to say I am a paralegal instead of an artist, but I am an artist at heart. Well I have gotten way off track and so this weekend my high school art club is participating in the sculpture contest again. I saw my old art teacher last weekend at my home towns fair and she said I should come on out. She told my daughter (5) how amazing I was when I was in school, etc. So my big plan is to leave the kids with their Daddy and go down to the Neptune festival, observe the sculpting (as I can't touch the sand because they are in a high school competition not freelance) and walk the boardwalk taking in all of the artist displays. When I take my kids, it is normally "Don't touch that" and I normally rush them out of the areas so I do not get the opportunity to truly enjoy the culture. So here was my plan: get up early, pick up a large coffee and be at the beach at 8 a.m. in the morning. Chat with some old friends and then slowly check out all of the area artist and festivities. No rushing involved.
Here is my problem. My best friend is a single Mom for a 12 year old and an 18 year old. She does not have any family to speak of and considers my family her own. We love them dearly but she wants to go to the festival. This means, we will eat where she wants, her kids will dictate what happens next because they may not like what I want to do and instead of focusing on the culture, with my best friend it is always focusing on the foods. She is my best friend but she NEVER watches what she eats. She complains about her weight but she never tries to curb what she puts in her mouth. She is on a limited income which means her and her kids will be hinting they want German sugar coated pecans, Italian Sausages, cotton candy, etc. all out of my pocket. I do not want to tell her I don't want them to go because it would truly hurt her feelings but I only get the opportunity to get away from the kids for a day maybe twice a year. And on this chance I for once wanted to do something just for me. UGHHH!
My husband is in the military so when he leaves for deployments I have the kids 24/7. Which is fine but in being a 24/7 mom I do not get to truly enjoy the world of art I once lived for. This opportunity to just go and enjoy myself I feel is being over shadowed by my friends want to take her kids, I pay and then she wants me to leave and go to a haunted amusement park with her and the kids. I would normally love to go to the haunted amusement park but not on my leisurely day to myself. What to do, What to do! I know if I tell her no she will be VERY upset. But knowing myself I will let them go and rush me through my day and I will have to wait another year for this opportunity again.