Now is my time!

Where do I begin?

Let's see...I am 32 years old. There. That is a start... :)

I grew up always being pretty active. I am the oldest of four kids. I have two sisters and a brother. It was not until I became pregnant with my first child that I even had a weight issue. I gained 60 pounds with him, had high blood pressure and even had to be put on bed rest. After he was born, I did lose some weight but being 5'3" - 155 pounds just doesn't cut it. My blood pressure still continued to be an issue.

3 years later I got pregnant with my daughter. Gained less weight this time, like 40 pounds but since I hadn't lost the weight previously I still found myself overweight after the baby. It was a stressful time when she was born. My husband at the time was not there and we were very much on the outs with each other. Two years later we divorced. I was over with being ignored and not being happy. I stayed in Napa so that my kids could still be with their dad 50/50.

It was those times when my new house was so quiet that I turned to food to keep me happy. I would sit inside, watch TV and just eat. Then afterward feel completely guilty and say to myself that I was going to start a diet tomorrow...

Fast forward to now. 3 years later. I met the man of my dreams and am now getting married. I am pretty much completely happy. Except of course with myself, my lack of motivation and just letting myself go. I am very much one of those people that eat based on my emotions. So now that I am happy, it has been celebrating that with steaks and ice cream and margaritas...

I really feel like if I challenge myself AND at the same time let the whole world know what I am doing and that I am ready to be healthy, that this will finally be the time. I have a great motivator. My wedding on April 1st, 2010 (and no that isn't an early April's Fool's joke

I am however feeling a tiny bit overwhelmed. I am hoping for support and help from all of you SparkPeople out there that know how I am feeling. Where did you start? How did your program work for you the first few weeks? Where are you now? Would love to hear everyone's stories!

Here is to all of us who struggle and keep trying!