I WOULD RATHER DIE ...
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Than tell you what happened to my perfect sweet beautiful REINE. I was on the phone with the vet when Reine's heart stopped. It was (and still is) so hard to breathe without her. She was my constant companion and fearless protector. It feels like I will never be happy again. I still cry off and on, she died on the 15th ... I want her back so bad. She had a cold and my Mom took her in to make sure there was nothing up her nose. I was in Los Angeles on business. The vet put her under to check her nose and she died from the anesthesia. She was only 5 ... she had at least 10 more years to go. I miss her with all my heart and soul. What am I going to do without my beautiful little girl?
I am completely lost and alone ... I don't even want to be alive right now. Everything is so hard and pointless. (I am not suicidal, please don't think that) I would never do that to my daughter. I am terribly depressed. I am completely heartbroken. She was pure love, sweetness and joy.
I will miss her every day for the rest of my life.
I had Reine creamated. I get her back today. I knew I could never live without her. When I die our ashes will be mixed and spread together. Along with some other very special animals.
She didn't deserve to die ... she was a larger than life character ... everyone loved her. She knew so many tricks and she was always there for me. I feel like I have let her down. I loved her as much as I love my daughter just in a different way.