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I WOULD RATHER DIE ...

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Than tell you what happened to my perfect sweet beautiful REINE. I was on the phone with the vet when Reine's heart stopped. It was (and still is) so hard to breathe without her. She was my constant companion and fearless protector. It feels like I will never be happy again. I still cry off and on, she died on the 15th ... I want her back so bad. She had a cold and my Mom took her in to make sure there was nothing up her nose. I was in Los Angeles on business. The vet put her under to check her nose and she died from the anesthesia. She was only 5 ... she had at least 10 more years to go. I miss her with all my heart and soul. What am I going to do without my beautiful little girl?

I am completely lost and alone ... I don't even want to be alive right now. Everything is so hard and pointless. (I am not suicidal, please don't think that) I would never do that to my daughter. I am terribly depressed. I am completely heartbroken. She was pure love, sweetness and joy.



I will miss her every day for the rest of my life.



I had Reine creamated. I get her back today. I knew I could never live without her. When I die our ashes will be mixed and spread together. Along with some other very special animals.

She didn't deserve to die ... she was a larger than life character ... everyone loved her. She knew so many tricks and she was always there for me. I feel like I have let her down. I loved her as much as I love my daughter just in a different way.

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  • LATINANYC
    I understand your loss. I've had three dogs. I had to give away my German Shephard when I was a child. I lost my doberman tragically and I also had to put down my flat coat retiever because she was ill. My sincerest condolences for your loss.
    3217 days ago
  • DREMARGRL
    I just found this today, Christy. I'm so sorry about the loss of your little Reine. Our Peaches was 16 and she died on the Dec. 13th. I know exactly how you are feeling and I'm sorry about that. Just wanted you to know.......Hugs,
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    3568 days ago
  • ERIN1957
    I just stopped back to say hi and found your blog. Christy I am so sorry. A pet is not an object we own, but a heart felt and loved companion, part of not only our families but hearts and lives. The loss is a hard one to bear. My sympathy is with you.
    Hugs, Erin (Em)
    3666 days ago
  • PODUNKPAUL
    My sympathy, I understand your loss, my Chivas, after 17 years with us left us 3 years ago and it still hurts.
    3667 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you. I lost a pet last October and it is so hard. I am sending prayers.
    3679 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/30/2010 9:04:03 PM
  • 2CATS2LOVE1
    My deepest condolences for your loss...you are in my thoughts and hope you feel better soon. So sorry. I can't imagine not having my two cats.
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    3680 days ago
  • MANCMALE78
    Sorry for your loss. Thoughts are with you.
    3681 days ago
  • DISNEYPARIS
    Oh Christy, l'm so sorry to read this. Thinking of you. emoticon emoticon
    3681 days ago
  • LIZZYP609
    Please know that I know how you feel. I have a cat...she is 16 years old. We have a connection that I have never had with any human or animal before. Though she is perfectly healthy I am so scared of the day when she will not be here anymore. She doesn't have to talk for me to know what she is thinking.
    I am sitting here crying for you right now. Please take it one day at a time my friend. We are here for you. You are not alone.
    3681 days ago
  • RAINBOWZLPN
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I am SO sorry to hear about your loss. It's hard to lose fur kids, no matter what. Please know I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon
    Jennifer
    3681 days ago
  • TRISHY12
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    My sincerest condolences for your loss... I know all too well how much it hurts to lose pet, as I just lost my dog, Cody, on Saturday. They become a part of your family and hold a piece of your heart just as much as any other member of the family. It is never easy to say goodbye, but please read the poem on the following webpage and take comfort that your beloved pet is waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge.

    http://rainbowbridge.com/Po
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    3681 days ago
  • EM4488
    I can not imagine the struggle you're going through. I, like all the others, am so sorry for your loss. She was a beautiful dog that will forever be a part of your heart.
    3681 days ago
  • LUCKY-13
    I'm so sorry to hear about Reine. It's never easy when we loss a pet, especially if they've been really close to our heart like your Reine was to you. Know that you gave her five very wonderful years that she wouldn't have had without you. Maybe in time you might want another companion animal, but in no way does getting another animal mean the hurt and pain will disappear. Each are unique and special in their own right, so Reine is irreplaceable in that aspect. When the time is right, and if it ever is, you'll know.

    But for now, hold onto those wonderful memories you have of her and know that you gave her love, happiness and the best of everything you could. If our pets do go to some place special when they die, and I want to believe that they do, then she's there still loving you and wanting to protect you.

    Hugs,
    Lucky
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    3681 days ago
  • TRENTDREAMER
    It feels like I will never be happy again. I still cry off and on, she died on the 15th ... I want her back so bad.

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    im so sorry for ur loss. the pain and sorrow can really feel debilitating when one loses a friend.

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    3681 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/28/2010 6:32:44 PM
  • LMB-ESQ
    emoticon Please know you're not alone. I am so very sorry for your painful loss.
    3681 days ago
  • NHGRL68
    So sorry for the loss of your pet. I lost my 7 year old cat back in March, so I can understand what you are feeling. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Best wishes. emoticon emoticon
    3681 days ago
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