Hate it when the body can't do what you want it to do
Friday, October 22, 2010
I have had a "frozen" shoulder for a long time now and it has been acting up so bad the past week that I have not been able to do my bike rides. The last time that I rode was a week ago Wednesday and towards the end of the ride, my shoulder had tightened up so much that I could barely hold on to the handlebars. It felt like it was raised up about a foot higher than my left shoulder (towards my head), but I know it wasn't that much.
Lately I have been having problems with the shoulder, my knee, varicose veins and fibromyalgia. Between all of these things, I feel like my body is falling apart. I hate to complain because I know that a lot of people have it worse off than what I do, but it is just frustrating when I want to do things and be more active and keep getting this weight off. Being more active helps with the fibromyalgia, but it is kind of a catch 22 finding the right balance so it doesn't set it off and now with the rest of my body not cooperating, I just feel like screaming sometimes. ARRRGHHHHHH.
To add to the frustration, I have been reverting back to some of my old emotional eating habits. I have just been feeling down and kind of feeling sorry for myself because of the health issues, which leads to the emotional eating, which starts me into a whole downwards spiral of wallowing in my problems. I have been trying to not let it get me down, but I feel like I am trying to climb up out of a hole and just keep on sliding back down.