Monday, November 01, 2010
Do I have to go back to not keeping ANY goodies in the house at ALL? Yeah, I think it's gotten to that point.
I am so disgusted with myself. I didn't blow it altogether...but I sure didn't do what I intended to.
Twice this past week, I was offered cookies and goodies, and I stood strong. Then, yesterday I went to church and there was a spread afterwards - hospitality was bonkers. I had little tastes of cheesecake, pastries, and a few giant strawberries covered in chocolate (never had that before)later on, a few pieces of dark chocolate. It's that "free food" temptation again.
But today I am filled with Self-loathing. The scale says 2 lbs Higher! I Do realize that I didn't gain 2 lbs in one day...the day before it was ONE pound higher.
So I'm going to buckle down, and treat myself like what I AM, a sugar addict in recovery...and try, TRY to forgive myself - see it as a learning experience,
and know that, in spite of yesterday ....I CAN DO this. But I need to do things Differently. (I just got a Synchronicity hit - on this - with John Stewart speaking what I am writing) Sign from the Universe that I'm on the right track.