Having a bad day
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
So today started out as a hopeful day. It turned into a horrid 3k calorie fest!! I feel horrible (not mentally but physically). I refuse to beat myself up over it though. We started off running horribly late because my bf left the shirt he needed for his performance at his step-dad's house. This is about a 30 minute drive from where we live right now. So leaving 20 minutes later than we wanted to anyhow, we have to now drive 30 minutes out of our way, stop and get gas, and still make it to his performance on time (which we did do thankfully).
So we stop for gas before we head out and I run into the station looking for some fruit to eat because I didn't have time to eat my whole wheat bagel. None to be found whatsoever. I am already getting the shakes from my blood sugar dropping so I grab a couple of muffins and some kind of danish thing for the bf. I eat this wonderful Strawberry Cream Muffin on the way to pick up his shirt. THEN I decide to look at the package. Since one of our goals this week is to measure out our food for our meals, I notice that one muffin is 3 (yes, THREE) servings. 600 calories boom!! I won't even go into the fat and other content.
We get to campus and I drop him off and head to the parking garage. Five floors later I finally find a parking spot, pay, put the receipt back into the car (so walk to other end of garage to pay and then back to place ticket in window) then down the 5 flights of stairs and the 5-10 minute walk to the Music building. After the performance his grandmother and step father take us to PF Changs for lunch (was delic). I actually didn't do horribly bad here. I got the crispy honey chicken with brown rice. I had only 1 spare rib (one of the smallest ones) from the appetizer and drank water with my meal, no dessert. Then we walked the mall a bit. (We also parked way far out for more walking) Into the Cinnabon he goes. One of my huge weaknesses. So we get 1 for each of us, and 1 small one for his dad. Get home, polish off those for dessert. Later on, we split the small one because he never gave it to his dad. Then comes the chocolate craving. I know I am craving it because i KNOW it is in the house. Down go some more fun size bars.
I had a really horrid day with the food. Although I got my water intake in, I didn't get my veggies, nor did I stay within any of the other ranges that SP has me in. Where does my willpower go on days like this? I have this picture in my mind of where I want to be again, but for some reason I cannot seem to hang onto the strength I need to have. At least I can say that I don't feel nearly as guilty for the days like today. I don't throw all caution to the wind anymore and say well I had a bad day yesterday, I will start over on Sunday again. I know I am making progress, but it is SO slow at times. I CAN do this, I WILL do this. Baby steps right?