Up and Down on the See Saw
Saturday, November 06, 2010
I go up and I go down and I go up and I go down. I am on a See Saw for the past couple of years that never really lets me get anywhere. It is SO HARD for me to lose weight, then many times the scale goes right back up, depressing me and reminding me just how much a battle this is going to be. I weigh the most I have in 20 years. It brings me down so much. Just five short years ago, I maintained no more than 135 lbs, and now I'm knocking on the door of 200 lbs and it's so scary. Why did I let myself down? I had things going on in my life and just completely lost sight of myself. I have to do something, but when you have so much to lose and every small amount is such a battle, it's hard to find the strength. I knwo I "just need to do it". I would really like to hear from someone that DIDN'T find it easy at all but figured it out. I'm trying different alternatives.