Life Goes On...
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Life goes on in spite of us doesn't it? Hubby has been out of work for over 1.5 years now and ran out of benefits months ago. This week we had to replace the plumbing under the sink and had damage to the base cabinet, I broke a window in my living room, the water heater died and I couldn't shower Thursday morning, my grandchildren have been sick, then their mommy got sick and I had the kids, AND the check engine light came on in my car! Three weeks ago my husband was in the hospital for a week and those bills are beginning to arrive.
Welcome to life! Those lemons I received in May 2009 just keep coming, and there's no light at the end of the tunnel. But for some reason, this week I decided enough was enough and it's time to take charge wherever I can. I can't buy all the healthy selections I loaded up on when I first started this journey, but I can focus on portion control, eating right whenever I can, and stop eating between meals to numb myself. The bad stuff is going to happen regardless of what I do, but the good stuff is there too. I still have a job, a roof over my head, a warm bed to lay my head at night (when I do sleep!), and food in my stomach.., even I can't make the very best choices. It's not so bad. I can still manage with what I do have. So, no time like the present to make better choices.
I admit I only worked out 1 night this week, but I did do better with eating. I managed to lose 2.5 pounds and that feels DARN GOOD! I've also promised myself to follow-up on the high blood calcium level that was noted 2 years ago as I wasn't aware that can signify a thyroid problem and could explain the constant fatigue. I know I need to go now, but it will probably be the beginning of the year before I can get an appointment, but at least I'm moving in the right direction.
So, that's where I've been, this is where I'm at. I'm not where I want to be just yet, but hopefully I've resumed the journey. Life goes on and I can choose to let it take over, or I can choose to dig my heels in and resist the urge to give up.
I think I'm going to duke it out. I think I can whip this life fellow!